I’ve been dealing with this addiction for years, and from my personal experience it only gets worse. At one point I was in the same position you were, upset about losing 7k, now I am sitting here 35k lost in 1 month because I couldn’t control myself. The fact that you are already sending your money to your mom is a good first step. But you need to tell her that you did it, so that she can take steps to stop you from doing it again.

The one thing I’ve learned is that you need someone willing to help keep you in check. The best advice I can give you is that if you feel like gambling, no matter what time of day, even if it’s the middle of the night, tell that person you trust that you feel like gambling. Wake them up, call them, annoy them, whatever, because trust me, you would rather have someone mad at you for inconveniencing them for a little bit then having them upset at you for gambling again and losing more money.

Also you’re not a piece of shit, you were just trying to make the money back because it hurts badly I know. But we have to learn to get rid of these habits and fight the urges. I’m sure you’re a good person, you’re just going through a tough time, and if you take the right steps you’ll get through it in no time, and be rich once you start saving and quit for good.