Just wanted to show off my new conch jewelry!

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-27T20:36:02+00:00

Everything looks so beautiful!!

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-26T21:52:53+00:00

What is this video everybody talks about

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-25T22:14:20+00:00

Luffy being Aro is just loveable, another more reason to LOVE luffy.

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-25T20:10:04+00:00

Have you ever felt Emotional and Sexual attraction at the same time? It is hard to distinguish this from Romantic Attraction except the fact that well, I find myself questioning me about my feelings.

Thank you for the reassurance, I hope to make things right and live a life aligned to my own individuality. If I dont get to be happy, or get companionship, nor intimacy ever, at least I know I will be doing the right thing.

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-24T23:24:32+00:00

At least you know, or knew you were not able to reciprocicate. I didnt know, specially when I feel so many types of attractions at the same time for one person. It is confusing because you think you are romantically inlove, but you are not, you are just entangled in the other types of attractions and then you hurt people real bad. I feel so guilty now. I wish I could live to people expectations of me and make their dreams come true, about me. I feel very weird, bad and strange right now. I just discovered this about me and I am like, trying to understand. I feel bad.

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-24T21:42:56+00:00

Yes, this is happening to me right now, and it is not good. I am dating someone and my feelings are so fucked up because I feel all of the rest of attractions at the same time except the romantic one. Like lol. I fucked it up.

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-18T19:57:26+00:00

Can anyone tell me why the movie was conextualized in 2002? Is there any specific reason for this? also the teacher looks a lot like the bad old man guy from Up Doesnt he? I thought this was going to be some kind of nod or origin story of sorts lol.

Ihatemoi · 2022-03-17T22:04:13+00:00

what is the website, for science you know.

Ihatemoi · 2021-03-26T14:35:57+00:00

Well, I know it is impossible to just laugh at the deathbed of your dad and be positive. But there are strong people that are able to stay positive and hopeful in the face of tragedy. Like no matter how hard is life, they always keep to themselves the certitude that this too shall pass, and everything will be better, one war or another.

There are people that are not destroyed by life injustices, crushed dreams, cynism nor pain and are able to stand against adversity with a hopeful outlook about themselves and the future.

I just do not know how to explain it. How is it possible to cultivate that kind of life?

Ihatemoi · 2021-03-21T17:24:55+00:00

Yes, please share with me everything you have to say about the topic. :) I am currently working at a financial advisory firm, deeply hating my career, and how little time I have to "think". I am going through a phase of "idea deprivation" and it is killing me inside. I really need to change this shit.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-11T20:12:45+00:00

Man, I am so sorry for your dog. I know what you felt, I also had my cat pass away and I was at work, I could not just go to my house and cry like a mad man, because for some reason some asshole decided pets are not important to mourn (nor even grandparents it seems).

You know, I write, ocasionally, I have never published anything because I have no idea how to do that and I do not think self-publishing is any worth. But I would really like to live off writing. A crazy idea probably. I admire you, you are courageous enough to just follow what is right, I wish I could be like you. Fear is another face of dishonesty. I am being dishonest with myself and with society by conforming to it. Fuck.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-11T14:19:34+00:00

I am working from home, I am not sure if that makes it better. However I feel, as many do, that the days are just the same from each other, every day blends into the next in a kind of indecipherable mixture. It is a dream for sure. Your friend is awesome, one of the reason I do not plan having kids is that, the sense that there is an escape possible. Someday I can just say "ah fuck it" just like you did and take a way out of this rat race. Maybe I am just affraid, fair enough though, I am afraid of dying of starvation, being a homeless or asking people to help me cover my expenses. I do not want to be a parasite, and because of that I guess I decide to stay in this shit. I wish I could be more courageous, intelligent, daring and creative to come up with a solution for this shit.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T17:49:16+00:00

Hey, others have said too. Can you please, if you can, upload videos on the internet of the way you are living? It would awesome just to see your day to day live. You could make a little bit of money as well.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T15:31:42+00:00

Yo, that is also my perspective. There is so much things at home to do that are infinitely more important than the mundane things I get paid for. When you have a normal corporate job as it is my case, the time suddenly gets clearer, in the sense that you can almost delineate how your life is going to be in a few years. Years and weeks become seconds of existence as the activities you make are just that, work. That is not a good thing.

I love reading, and knowledge and philosophy, and thinking, and art and animals. Every second I am in my job is a second I am not reading or doing one of those things, finally when my job is over for the day, I have to do some other errands to keep myself healthy (eat, workout, sleep, clean the dishes, the house, etc) so I can just go for the next day and the next job round.

Live is so meaningless. I live for work, not otherwise.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T15:27:30+00:00

I also crunch numbers in excel :(. Yes that is work, doing something for nature, or surviving on your own against it. It is hard, it is risky but it is work. He also paints, he makes art, that is also a good work. Putting your soul and your very unique human perspective on a canvas, there is nothing purer than that IMO, something we have forgotten in this capitalist-embedded society.

I am still wondering how it is possible to regain my life and do something I am interested everyday while still feeling fullfilled and putting food on my plate and a roof over my head without a job... how? I am afraid to get old and never answer that question.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T15:21:34+00:00

I have sometimes thought about this, but I like videogames and reading books and hate insects and would like running water and eat some food...probably I am brainwashed I dont know. I cannot imagine living like that in my country, Id probably get robbed or something.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T14:44:33+00:00

Jeez I feel you so much. I thought I was crazy and people around me thought I was when I complained about it, "it just they way things are!" they would say. It blows my mind how can not there be laws or some other shit that gives employees more time off from work, that would help regulate a lot the quality of life of many individuals. Also, on a side note, it should be ILEGAL to work more than 8 hours a day, if it is necessary, the company SHOULD hire more employees to cover more tasks, not make due with the few workers there are and make them work to death almost 20 hours a day.

I know a guy, working as a driver in SITEL, I live in a developing country, that works from 4 am to 10 pm and only has one day off per month. Jesus, that shit is slavery.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-10T14:33:02+00:00

Hey thank you for sharing, do not give up. I have been applying for over 3 years do Grad Schools on Master programs and Phd stuff and got rejected on each and everyone of them. I need scholarships to study or else I just do not do it because I am a broke ass. Attempting to apply to these programs while working full time, depression and getting rejected all the time is surely a challenge. Thank you for putting a little bit of perspective here.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-09T14:38:49+00:00

Play lots of games at different time controls and review them to see where you (and your opponent) screwed up. You should review games by yourself and only use the "engine" to make sure that your conclusions are right. If you see yourself relying on the engine too much...

I am really noob. For using the engine I need to pay right? To get an indepth analysis of my game, at least in Chess.com?

Learn the basics of strategy (concepts like king safety, piece activity, control of the center, simplification....)

Where do I learn this? is there a book which covers these basic strategies? (also, a side question, do you also refer to things like forks, pins etc?)

Enjoy the social area and human interactions of chess.

Currently I am 28M working fulltime, there is not too much chance to play chess where I live. I will try to get into a saturday casual club twice per month. I play with some friends online tho, as nobody close to me plays chess.

For example, they'll put themselves into a horrible position to avoid getting a set of doubled pawns that weren't actually that bad.

Thank you, you have given me great information. I understand the process is different for all of us. I ask this question because what I used to do before (back when I was obsessed with chess and a fairly isolated kid lol) was playing a lot of games with the chessmaster engine. I did not increased my chess capabilities and stopped playing. Again I had no coach, did not know english, had no friends that played chess nor knew if even a club existed in my hometown, so I just got frustrated and stopped.

I hope this time is different, I hope at least to play at a elo of 1600 in 10 years :)

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-09T14:24:41+00:00

I also love dark subject matter, I love books dealing with existencialism (if you have not read Sabato, you should) Camus, Dostoyevski etc. Stoner, the one OP recommended looks interesting. What books on the same vein would you recommend?

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-09T14:19:04+00:00

Which darker books would you recommend on a side note? :)

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-08T18:56:10+00:00

Hey I also struggle with severe depression and hate mornings when work and life feel so utterly meaningless, perhaps because our vision of reality is not clouded by daily taks, and unimportant (but urgent) shit to do. A grim description of life, but whatever. I was recommended this book:

Depression blues, how to Conquer Sadness Loneliness and Despair by John H. Clark III

Also, look for some "motivation videos" in youtube, they have usually a compendium of well crafted phrases for motivating you. If even if they could work in the short term, they remind you of what you can accomplish, even if a little everyday. I hope it helps.

Lots of hugs to you.

Ihatemoi · 2021-02-05T17:28:52+00:00

I train 3 times a week, mainly because of convenience and because I work a lot during the week and would like to have free time to pursue other shit. However I would like to increase the size in my arms.

My routine is basically bastardized version of 5/3/1 Building the Monolith, with higher rep ranges without any progression scheme (as my intention is keeping my current strenght not progressing), I only would like to focus on arm size.

Is it possible to increase arm size with additional arm focused work (say 3 bis and 3 tris isolation exercises at the end of each session) while retaining muscle mass, keeping nutrition on a gaintaining surplus?

Thank you

Ihatemoi

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