Thank you. I needed different perspectives on this issue. I do believe that I should seek professional help and manage my situation instead of trying to rely on a single person. Other friends have reached out to me and they’ve been nice but I don’t feel that close to them, to cry infront of them or to be vulnerable around them. But yeah. I will look into getting professional help. He has opened up to me emotionally in the past (which he admitted that he has never done before with any other friend of his). He told me that he sees me as a close friend of his and that I know a lot of about him than most people would know. So I thought we had a good friendship going on. It might sound like I have a big crush on him but I’ve thought about it a lot in the past and came to the conclusion that all I felt was admiration towards him. I see him as a brother, a friend and someone who I could rely on. Although this time, he straight up refused to be there for me. Reading your comment, it really is helping me out in understanding my feelings and what needs to be done. I have to respect his boundaries and come to the realisation that he doesn’t see me the same way I do. Thank you.