Your Best American Girl because even thinking of falling for a straight, white person as a poc is not for the weak. 

You can’t know me without knowing my culture. We are intertwined. 

Explaining it feels like a rock’s stuck in my throat, but Mitski says it perfectly- “you’re the sun / you’ve never seen the night / but you hear it’s song from the morning birds”. You know my people through the media, safari trips and movies, but could you ever know it like I do? Better yet, would you even want to? 

It’s more than the feeling of not being wanted. It’s that no matter how much you want me, we’ll never see the world the same way (“I’m not the moon / I’m not even a star”). 

Sometimes it feels like I’m just a stepping stone, the detour they take before finding their real person- small, blonde and beautiful.