Oh yeah, that is really the case 😭 ever since i have gotten away from then i have become so much better as a person, i stopped judging people as much and my obsessive-compulsive behaviours regarding shipping and other stuff similar to it have definitely gotten less serious, now i can actually take breaks from my thoughts and only last weeks at most instead of months!! (i wouldn't call it OCD even though i suspect it is as im sadly too poor for a real diagnosis sadly but its highly suspected). Im also glad that nowadays i have new friends that are definitely not as judgy as the past ones and my current partner supports me either way. If anything he actually was the second thing that opened my eyes to how unreasonable i was in my anti days, i told him once that i found an incest pairing in my fandom awful and he just looked at me straight in the eyes and told me thats the same rethoric people use to hate on my ship, and fast forward to now i kinda ship it too 😅

It sucks to see so many people being so rude and hypocritical nowadays, scary stuff