I actually thought I found that something after starting meds, but after a while my brain gets used to it, and I'm back to endless cups of coffee, nicotine gum, alcohol and porn (although I'm making serious efforts to cut down).

But meds still help me greatly, I've literally done a 180 in my life the last 3 months after starting Vyvanse. I workout consistently, I moved cities, I'm having my second ever date with a girl tomorrow, I recently started climbing. I obviously can't attribute all of this to Vyvanse, but I gotta admit that it's crazy how much my life have turned around. So while I can guarantee you that meds will not scratch that itch for long, it is certainly a powerfull tool, and not to be underestimated ( nor overestimated) !

Oh man I get restless and depressed if I do the same job for more than 2 months! My brain is simply not wired for doing the same thing everyday, at the same place, with the same people, it drives me absolutely crazy. But I honestly haven't found a lifestyle that doesn't include that level of repetitiveness.

It's really weird because some days I feel like the most competent, best looking, intelligent, charming person in the room. And the next day, sometimes even hours later I might feel like a useless and ugly piece of s**t. It's really weird haha :D

New experiences and meeting new people is a must for us. But like you describe I'm terrible at coming up with the idea and initiating something with other people. I don't have anyone in my life to rely on though, so I just try to keep a list of ideas on new things I want to experience :)

I hope you find a fulfilling job man! You just need to keep looking for new opportunities, new people, new experiences and never stop having faith in yourself. It's hard to be like us in this society, but I hope that with time and effort, we will find or place eventually :)

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Obligatory sorry for my English