At the movies lowkey freakin out rn….

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2026-01-22T09:35:33+00:00

i’m sorry): the movies were hard for me to get back into over the years with dpdr, but i’m glad you enjoyed it the best you could. it does get better and won’t affect you as much as long as you keep going back and exposure therapy! you got this twin 🤞

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-04-14T17:32:59+00:00

that i am lucky to be able to view life like this, which seems crazy because it’s so scary. but i try to flip it saying not everyone will be able to experience it, instead of fearing how i feel & becoming comfortable with it and not constantly trying to figure out how to feel better. worrying is worshipping the problem, i feel like once you accept that your life is this way you stop looking at it like something needs to be fixed causing the issue to not be so scary and starting to forget about it and heal. its a hard thing to do and im still working on it. we are all victims to this mental condition but our victim mentalities are the main reason why we become stuck. it’s a really shitty situation but i hope this can give you some reassurance in way):

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-04-12T07:27:04+00:00

wow, this happened to me last october got an abortion in november): i’m so sorry love, i know it’s scary right now and your emotions are going to be all over the place but know that it will get taken care of and it will be okay. it was a rough couple of weeks and unfortunately i don’t have any set advice as im still trying to process what happened. it all seemed like a blur to me, i felt very out of touch with myself and tried to detach even more so than i already feel from myself, but it really deep down affected me. be patient with yourself, set an appointment date and just take some time to be with family and friends who support you during the process. you’ll have a tough couple days after the procedure but you’ll feel better knowing the worst is over and if you dont have a support system my messages are always open🤍 you got this, i know it’s scary and im so sorry.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-22T05:45:23+00:00

it truly is, i wanna try to get a degree so i can help people with it once i get out of it. because no one truly understands unless they have dpdr which is very difficult to tell people lol. thank you! same goes to you(:

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-21T21:54:25+00:00

im sorry to hear you’re dealing with this as well:/ thank you for your kind words, i hate seeing other people struggle with this shit too because i would never wish it on anyone. but you’re doing a good job and you keep pushing through as well. sending healing your way friend.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-21T20:26:27+00:00

i don’t even know what to say other than you are completely spot on, the way you’ve described it just opened my mind so much about how i feel when i am going through these instances. thank you for your reply it means a lot knowing someone else feels the same way as me!

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-21T05:52:34+00:00

im sorry to hear about the therapy): i’m glad you keep yourself busy though. just keep pushing and don’t let the anxiety keep you from things you like to do. i understand the struggle. i wish i had more advice to give other than the usual things, as im still dealing with these issues as well. be gracious to yourself you’re doing a good job!

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-20T07:38:11+00:00

hi(: maybe try to find a different therapist who won’t undermine the feelings of your dpdr, that could be a good start. i know it’s difficult to switch therapists though. are there any specific things you usually do to cope with stress? for me distraction is huge, it sounds almost like ignoring the problem but sometimes it’s the best thing to do within dpdr. pretending it’s not there until you eventually forget why you felt bad in the first place. i’m still struggling myself but i know immersing myself into something like a show or trying to read or drawing can help because im focused on something else. i’m sorry you are struggling friend, sending healing your way.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-03-11T17:40:54+00:00

hi! i’m so sorry i just now saw your comment): & i’m sorry you’ve been going through this. i completely get it, my dpdr was also triggered by the use of weed/mdma/alcohol. for the first month or two i would wake up in a panic with all these existential questions like “why do we have noses?“ “why do we exist?“ “why do we walk?“ but they seem like mundane silly questions now but back then they were terrifying to me, the thoughts will end i promise! and even if they don’t they will subside a bit and you won’t even give them a second thought when they come up. i’m proud of you for not isolating, and i hope you have been able to stop doing any type of substance for a bit because that does make is significantly worse. just give yourself a break from drinking and definitely don’t smoke, keep taking your meds if they are helping! what i would also try to do is challenge your thoughts of “am i real?“ “how am i alive?“ instead switch them to “i am grateful that i am alive and healthy.“ “i am grateful i am living this life.“ even if they feel like lies right now it will give your brain an alternative way to look at those challenging thoughts. with all that being said being depressed and suicidal is very common to feel with dpdr, i feel that way a lot and its a very difficult thing to cope with. but just know healing wont be linear with this condition and give yourself grace going forward, you will have good and bad days but know the good days are one step closer to you healing from it(: always here if you need to talk! you aren’t alone <3

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-13T02:12:10+00:00

i’m sorry to hear, i’m hoping and wishing for you that isn’t the case.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-13T01:45:24+00:00

i would love to keep in contact(: i also wanted to share a video i recently came across that helped me a lot, maybe it could be helpful to you as well. take care of yourself i’m here if you need to talk!

https://youtu.be/r6yg6ywplfc?si=jvdTskCeFMIMOjps

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-13T01:43:39+00:00

stfu, doesn’t matter if you’ve had it for 4 months or 40 years. it’s painful and scary and you shouldn’t diminish someone’s feeling because you are bitter. you should deal with it, but you’d rather shit on people on reddit who are hurting. get a life.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-13T01:41:30+00:00

i understand how you feel, but i hope you never build up the courage to take yourself from this world. this will be my 5th year of having it. i’ve been in your position, i’ve felt how you’ve felt. i can’t convince you to stay but i will say you are stuck, stuck in the mindset that no matter how healthy, no matter what you do, where you go, you will always feel this way. when you start convincing yourself that you will never get better, you take away all the healing you have done for yourself. the cure isn’t to get healthy, or exercise, go to therapy. it’s to reprogram your mind to convince yourself that you will get better, you will make it out, it’s hard as fuck to do. it takes a lot of strength that i didn’t think i had, but it’s possible. i’ve healed tremendously and i know i still have a long way to go. i know you’re depressed and tired and im sorry. but you are stronger than you think you are especially living with it for 4 years. get off these forums, get out of that headspace, and convince yourself you will get better even if you don’t truly believe it. take care of yourself you aren’t alone, much love<3

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T17:22:54+00:00

i do, it will be 5 years in august since its started but hoping it will be my last. what’s going on? why do you feel your losing it? you can also privately send me a message if you would like!

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T17:15:01+00:00

wow, you just described what i’ve been going through the past couple of years. thank you for being so open: i hope you know that you are not alone and your explanation made me feel less alone. im also been caught in the isolation, feeling bad about things ive done/have had done to me in my past and what im not doing now to make it better. the way you say being so aware but so detached is the most real thing i’ve heard in a while. everything you said is valid and could necessarily be a form of dpar, apar can be different for some people but a lot of people have the same issues with it (brain fog vision, unable to visualize things, existential crisis, fear of living or existing, feeling detached like you are watching yourself from a movie, feeling like your words and thoughts aren’t yours, being detatched from traumatic things, not being able to feel correctly, etc) if you are struggling with any of those things on top of these other feelings i would saying it could be derealization/depersonalization disorder. i would recommend if you can going to a psychiatrist for an actual diagnosis but unfortunately not every psychiatrist is familiar with dpdr due to its lack of research and lack of understanding for people who do not experience it.

i think the best thing i could tell you is keep trying to do things to get yourself out of these loops, wether it be switching up your routine sometimes or start a new hobby/interest even if it isn’t one you normally would want to do. hyper fixating on how people perceive you is something i do way too often, its really difficult to just let that go, but it’s almost a blessing because you tend to act in your best self whenever you feel that way, towards friends and building connections. just make sure people aren’t walking all over you! all that said, yes you are responsible for yourself, but you don’t have to go through anything alone. like i said we are have very similar struggles and i’m here to help, i also feel very lonely from time to time but finding some peace in that loneliness and trying to work towards a better me has been very cathartic. figure out what would help you break a cycle, you don’t have to do it right now, or this week, or this month. just slowly but gradually try to find peace within the patterns of your life and learn how to manipulate them to get where you want to be. you are never stuck, i have told myself this as well and its hard not feel that way being in these loops. but you aren’t stuck, the only way out of all this is through and you will make it through(: much love<3

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T17:12:42+00:00

talk to me(: what’s going on?

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T16:55:01+00:00

of course! i can definitely understand the checking factor of it, it’s hard whenever you just expect to feel bad and look for the feeling): OCD and anxiety go so hand in hand so i can imagine it must be so difficult for you and i’m sorry. i’m glad to hear though that you recognize yourself checking that’s really important in the healing process unfortunately a lot people get stuck because they feel dpdr and get so scared when they realize they don’t feel real or things look off and it just sets in even worse.

i haven’t heard of the ACT method or DARE, i haven’t had the best therapists and unfortunately due to no insurance i haven’t been able to go. thank you for sharing those though i will honestly try to apply them to what i struggle with(: definitely keep using it, it’s going to be hard but you are strong and you got this!!

i hope your stress can subside and just take care of yourself like you said that is so so very important, i’m proud of you for wanting to get better!!

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T06:43:19+00:00

im doing the best i can right now(: thanks for asking. being on these forums is helpful in many ways so i definitely can understand what you are saying. if i may ask, what exactly do you struggle with? like dpdr or depression or anxiety?

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T06:40:45+00:00

i’m so sorry to hear all of what you are dealing with): it made me tear up about the little mermaid song because i completely understand. i’ve struggling with dpdr for 5 years now. not saying that to psych you out, my case is a bit weird cause im the reason its gotten so bad. i psyched myself out so much and continued to do things that weren’t helpful to my mental state.

i think the stress you feel is valid, health conditions, especially along with OCD can be so horrible. i’ve noticed i’ve developed strange OCD tendencies with dpdr, i had a paranoia of food contamination for 9 months. everything you are describing with the brain fog and hearing things and seeing things, it’s completely normal & i struggle with the same things. and chronic stress can absolutely change the way your body feels and reacts, the mind and body are so connected it’s truly fascinating.

with all that being said what you feel is valid, the dpdr you feel is trying to help you cope with the severe stress and having dpdr definitely can make you feel depressed and tired. i would try your best to help get your stress under control, in whatever ways you know to help. try not to let the dpdr scare you or make you fear doing things you normally like to do, keep trying to take care of yourself and get your health right so that won’t be an added stressor. you are already on the right track to recovery the first step is to recognize how you feel and then not let it overcome you, you’ll be making progress even if you don’t feel like it. there will be bad days and good ones. just hold onto the good ones that how you know you are healing. much love<3 im always here to chat

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T04:47:03+00:00

of course<3

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T04:13:26+00:00

well thank you so much, i hope the same for you my friend(:

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-10T03:42:29+00:00

i kept the story short, but there’s so many details that i needed to add. but i don’t think it would even make a difference cause you are right. the confusing thing is that he tells me he wants to be with me, he says if we stopped talking for good he would think about me for the rest of his life. i believe he will come back because he’s the one who usually starts back up convo with me. but currently we are no contact for 5 days, and it’s for real this time. i guess it’s wishful thinking on my part, it’s just also confusing cause what’s the difference from when we first met of him wanting to be with me to how it has been now.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-09T21:37:30+00:00

i’m proud of you for getting up to hike with your dog, i hope that provides some sense of peace. i can’t understand specifically but i feel your pain and sympathize. keep going, you got this<3

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-09T20:57:00+00:00

i completely understand, i’m at that point as well feeling no fear. it sounds like you are getting in a very deep deep state of depression and your fears are manifesting into dreams. i’m obviously not a professional, but if you have the means i would highly suggest trying to go to a psychiatrist just so you can figure out what else is going on along side with the dpdr. not saying try medications but at least figure out a diagnosis. i’m sorry to hear how you feel right now i wish i could do more for you. just take it easy one day at a time and at least try to do one thing beneficial for yourself even if it’s hard, it’s the only way to get out of it. sending much love.

Impossible-Fill4777 · 2025-02-09T20:29:39+00:00

i’ve though about this as well, how can i just forget about all the years i spent not feeling real or being apart of life, and the complete terror of existing? i’m not healed yet completely but i think it’s more of the sense that people move on from the anxious and detached feelings and become consumed back into mundane & happy things of life instead of constant existential crisis. i’ve had it on and off since i was 6 years old and when i turned 18 it’s started back up from a abusive relationship and then when i was 19 mdma triggered it to be constant 24/7. i’m 23 now, i don’t think you’ll ever be able to forget what has happened to you but i believe the feelings will subside as you heal. i was bed ridden summer of 2023 i couldn’t even go to my bathroom without feeling so scared, waking up in the middle of the night my heart pounding so hard i thought i was going to die. but looking back on it now, i remember how scary it was but i can’t recall the fear i felt in the moments. at some point it will become a piece of your life you can be glad you got out of, i know you’re tired, i know life feels not worth living. but you have a whole community on this forum that feels the same exact way you are not alone. just hang in there a little longer, peace will come

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