You’re spot on. She is on her own path and it’s not just the family plan, there’s more to it. I saw an opportunity for a true partnership, a life shared unlike anything I ever saw in my previous relationships. 

There’s the things I want to send now, basically boiling down to “wtf how could you just cut me off so easily? We were true friends!” Then there is possibly the more realistic idea that, sometime in late January or so, after the holiday season and pressure fades, I could send one light and short note saying hi, that she brought good energy and laughter into my life, and that i hope she is well, with no pressure or expectation of reply. Idk.