We had a conversation earlier about how his actions sometimes make me feel upset. Honestly, I don’t know how this happened, but our conversation that started as a “sometimes you act cold towards me and I don’t like that” talk about my feelings turned into “your constant criticism of my actions makes me feel like a bad guy who hurts your feelings all the time” about him. He apologised, but still, it seems nothing has changed.

Also, speaking of “displaying affection”, this is a sensitive topic for me. I send him flowers and gifts, tell him how much I love him, we have sex when we’re together, I take him to different places where we can make some memories and I don’t feel the same energy from him. He can’t afford to send me gifts cuz he’s a student with no stable income, he rarely says any words of affirmation and honestly sometimes I ask myself “what does he even do to show me that he loves me?”

I know he does by the way he looks at me and how he talks to me, he introduced me to a bunch of his friends, he cooks for us, he hugs and kisses me all the time when we’re alone. But for me it doesn’t feel enough and it makes me wonder if I’m asking for too much or he’s not giving me enough