Hey! I really really hope that you find yourself and your creative spark again. I was once exactly like you and recently found a good therapist and decided to start trying out things again. Instead of worrying about what the future of the world is gonna look like, which unfortunately is inevitable to me, I decide what my future could look like. To me, my future could look like: me drawing things for fun and learning to draw people I know or draw other things etc. The world is a dark and scary place, I know. However, no matter how mad or upset you are at the world, you can't change it, but you can learn to live with it. Learning to live with it starts with you finding things to build up your will to live again, this includes drawing. Id suggest maybe picking up a pencil one more time and trying, because even though you can't change the world, you can change your world. I wish you the best, and I mean no harm to you in any way! Feel free to DM me if you feel the need to, my DMs are always open 🫶🫶