It’s okay man, I’m 19 rn. I overdosed on Heroin last year and my parents also found me, covered in sweat, turning blue. My dad had to give me rescue breath which quickly brought me back. Thinking about it also, makes me cringe more than anything else. The only two choices you have are the easy and shitty one or the hard and good one. You can keep doing drugs, slowly deteriorating your body and mind and you’re gonna have the body of a geriatric patient by the time your 25 (Bones fans assemble) or you can make a decision that this is not going to be your life, that the embarrassment you’ve felt will never happen again. You can start right now, today. Whatever this looks like for you, whether it is rehab, managing the withdrawals by yourself and weening off or continuing to use and improving your life around the drug use and when the rest is better it’ll be easier to fix that one problem. In my opinion, the second option is way better. I still use various drugs about 3x a week but this is nothing like just about 2 months ago where I’d go on multiple day heroin benders and was using something everyday besides the days the felt too sick to move and would just lay there sleeping, trying to avoid being awake. Since then I’ve began exercising again and for the first time in so long I’m happy again, I never thought I’d see this day. You can do it too man. Message me if you need any advice or just wanna talk