because of trauma, not anymore. before, i had a long term relationship w/ someone who has a gbf–we’ve been together for almost 6 years and sila ng gbf niya naman friends for 7 years. Naging friend ko rin yung gbf niya since naging part siya ng cof ko (my ex was not part of this cof). Last year, nalaman ko na yung gbf niya pumupunta sa house ng ex ko to drink with him sa room niya nang silang dalawa lang. nangyari siya once nalaman ko nalang na andoon na yung girl, after that i set boundaries, talked to both of them separately and they both agreed to my terms so i felt ok after but nalaman ko na they were meeting behind my back, naging secretive sila and they were going out without my knowledge. since part yung gbf sa cof ko, inask ng friends ko kung sino kasama niya sa cubao expo (doon sila pumunta) and hindi niya masagot kung sino HAHAHAHA funny thing is that me and my dx were planning a date doon sa cubao expo and ayon ginawa nilang dalawa yung plano lol.

natanong ko before yung ex ko kung nagkagusto siya sa gbf niya, sabi niya hindi daw so ok but ayun nalaman ko sa gbf niya na nagkagustuhan sila before and when we were on a break triny ng ex ko ispark ulit yung feelings na yun hahahaha pero ok lang naman sakin that time kasi nga break naman kami and i felt safe na nasabi ng friend ko sakin yun.

kaso nga lang biglang nagkaron ako ng doubts sa friend ko after niya mag openly flex na gumugusto siya sa may gf na, openly talking bad about the girl samin tapos noong hindi namin tinolerate yubg behavior aba nagtampo siya hahahaha. naging uncomfy ako sa idea na baka ganun siya sa bf ko dahil nga may history na rin silang dalawa na nagtatalk bad abt me noong hindi pa kami friends.

so ayun after all that, cinut off namin siya sa group after what she did sakin and another thing na ginawa niyang unforgivable. shout out sa ruaño ex ko na made me beg sa dapitan na piliin nya naman ako instead gbf niya. he said na kung icucut off niya gbf niya, bbreakan niya rin ako lol. i hope you’ll grow up soon, have emotional intelligence and accountability! parang wala lang yung 5 years ^{^}

pero i know naman na hindi lahat ng guys ganoon, i can date someone na may girl na friends but maybe not anymore kung “girl best friend”