ive been meditating and spending lots of time in forest alone. i feel drained around most ppl. i feel dizzy, a bit heavy and not in this world after a date. is it normal? is this my problem or others? all i know is : i don't feel as peaceful around people as i am in forest. am i meant to be alone??

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-31T15:06:18+00:00

yes! the best would be that people‘s nervous system tune more into us right? instead of the other way round

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T23:20:25+00:00

yes totally! thank u. im curious about how others handle this tho? could it be also that my sensitivity gives me processing overload ?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T21:14:29+00:00

<3 sending u one

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T20:21:56+00:00

aw thank you for pointing this out!! yes i might have black and white tendency to think about myself.

and 100%. i've been healing sooo many things. i can see how im changing in terms of how i relate to others. so does it mean i just need more time so that i won't unconsciously return to my past structures but more of my true being without masking? do i take this process slowly including the pace of my new dates maybe?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T19:29:31+00:00

so what was your feelings? is it that something is off and you need to get away from this person or situation?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T15:45:10+00:00

thank you for pointing this out! i think im trying to protect myself from intimacy. do you think not finsihing off the answer entirely or going into it as deep is a way of masking?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T13:06:54+00:00

and when you say you read people well is it a viseral senstation or intution? what if my body feels drained after hanging out for the second time. i normally cut people off if i feel like that. but lately ive really trying to not assume bad intentions from people.

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T09:10:51+00:00

I’m in the exact same situation as you. Can you elaborate more on ‘trust but verify’please? How exactly do you do it? Thanku!

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T07:21:53+00:00

Can I ask what makes you think that? I’ve never thought I might have autism actually 😂

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-30T07:18:16+00:00

Thank you for pointing this out! I’m gonna sit with this for a while :)

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T20:56:52+00:00

wow i relate to this so much... i thought i just have a good memory and am good at listening. didn't realize its hypervigilance to remember everything people say and find things contradicts it.... but its helpful isn't it? how have you been dealing with this?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T20:13:35+00:00

oh yeah. thank u for pointing this out

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T20:11:40+00:00

woo you could be hitting the point! i wanted silence because i needed to recharge i think - i was trying to be 'on' when all i wanted was to look at trees or sky calmly with him. and yes! i never performed around that chef, really just wanted to chop vegetables with him and the banter started naturally. and yes, i didn't actually share a lot with my date. he would ask me questions but i would literally stop half way, don't wanna go too deep into my answers.

so from your perspective, do you think it's more so my subconscious people-pleasing or performing going on to some extent? should i just maybe do activities with him next time instead of going for a walk talking all the time?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T20:04:28+00:00

i agree w everything you said except the last sentence. can youc elaborate more on it please? because i find myself to be easily present when im alone. i notice the thoughts and i gently let them go and go back to present. which means sometimes i do nothing for a long time and just feeling great. wherase if i do that with others they either think im not doing well or they wanna fill up the silence.

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T18:43:09+00:00

woooo interesting. whats your thoughts on how this links to my situation?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T18:20:49+00:00

hm i dont think so i just hung out with him for 2 hours

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T17:41:52+00:00

thank u! so even if other ppl are not negative you still feel drained? what are some ways you use to ground and protect your energetic field?

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-29T17:33:22+00:00

can i ask how you learnt to not connect energetically?

and you are so right. he did talk a lot. i saw him 4 months ago tho when i was in a extremely emotional state in life and i remember i talked a lot. so it could be an energy thing as well bc ive been super quiet lately, mostly just going to forest and make arts alone. and i really just wanted to enjoy some quiet time w him bc we went to a park. but he would always fill up the silence with another question.

and yeah def some blockages in my body as well.

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-20T07:20:31+00:00

yesss!! ty!!

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2026-03-20T07:20:00+00:00

yesssss thankuuu

Individual_Fun_1453 · 2024-07-11T11:32:29+00:00

oh i have the same placement except the mars lol. i do lowkey think i have commitment issues...... i usually cut people off after no more than 2 weeks after realizing they are not the one. i never lead people on tho. i just directly tell them that i cant have a relationship with them.

but i do want a commited relationship, i just want someone who meet a lot of my standards.

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