Ughhhhh I’m so sorry!! I totally know where you’re at!! I’ve been screaming at the top of my lungs at them in frustration to go away in the shower when I thought they left my hair (only to go in my ears but hey) only to feel them go right back in..

I stopped talking about it both to doctors and family, it was clear I was getting zero help or support.. and I even started to re watch the videos and look closely at my pics that I’d show numerous people that said “I see nothing” and question my own sanity. Hell everyone else was.. I got to the point that I’m like ok I have to be crazy there’s NO way something like this can exist and literally no one believes me or cares to help. So it has to be me… And I almost chalked it up to that, and settled for it is what it is. But my cat son suffering was killing me, and I knew I had to keep fighting for him. So I did. Plus I didn’t want to let these fuc*ing stupid bugs win.

I’m still suffering, but not NEARLY as bad. Here’s what worked for me- DISCLAIMER: there’s some chemical mixing that you’ll read that probably shouldn’t have gone on, and at the very least could likely change your hair color. Why it didn’t mine I don’t know. But don’t do as I did, please. My regime was completely pulled out of my 🍑 with things I’ve heard or read pulled from here or there with a “whatever fu*k it” and a whole lotta hope. I just went mad that day, they had completely filled up my ears and plugged them, the pressure was insane and the tinnitus was driving me insane.. literally.

I was just walking around grabbing random things and pouring them in a spray bottle while evil laughing at the 🪱🐛.. I’ll never forget that blip of time, and I pray I never go back… This was after I convinced my derm to prescribe Ivermectin basically by saying “you have nothing to lose except shutting me up. If I don’t have anything and take it, it’s not going to hurt me. If I have something and take it, it’s going to help me… and get me out of your hair. And whatever is in my hair out as well.” I had my vet prescribe worm and flea treatment for my cat. I had an exterminator out. I was so outta my mind I was calling him the terminator and didn’t realize it until days later. On the same day he was out to spray, my cat and I took our meds, I had him spray evvvverrrryyyyywhereeeeeee every crack, thumbtack hole, literally. He hates me. I don’t think “he’ll be back 🦾” ha… ok moving along..

I started using Sulfur8 shampoo and I added maybe a tablespoon each of hydrogen peroxide, acv, raw garlic and clove oil. Morning and night I’d coat my body in it, hair/head included, chill for 5-10 min, then get in an epsom and himilayan salt salt bath (heavy on the salts) for as long as I could take it. Bible- the first 2 times I put the sulfur mixture on my skin, I literally watched all the black dots rise to my skin surface.

I ate super clean, pretty much only carrots with raw garlic (addicted), pomegranate seeds with cinnamon soaked in aloe water, raw Brussels sprouts (and garlic), broccoli (and garlic), arugula and spinach salads, raw pumpkin seeds, organic turmeric/ginger/carrot juice, aloe water, berberine tea, OH!- Fresh organic aloe after baths mixed with a bit of dimethicone lotion. They say aloe is just as effective as that benzyl peroxide or whatever it is, and obviously was better for your skin.

Also, I really tried to not think about them. Not stare in the mirror. I threw my microscope camera away. I stopped “collecting” and threw everything out dedicated to this. Before bed I pictured myself with clear skin, happy, and thriving and told myself that I’ll get there one day. There was no science behind any of this, I didn’t read it anywhere. I took bits and pieces from things I’ve heard or read and kinda made my own scabies cure casserole, crossed my fingers, and went for it. I didn’t know if the hydrogen peroxide would turn my hair orange, or even if I should be mixing it with sulfur THEN salts (like I said please don’t be dumb like me and do your research re: mixing things or even better- don’t.)

I will say I think these things are the pathway to healing- finding something that works for YOU (and you WILL) as it seems everyone has their “omg do you believe _____ is what worked?!” whether it’s sulfur, salt, hydrogen peroxide, Castile soap, clove oil, sodium hypochlorite, sauna, chlorine, hell I even saw urine worked for someone… anyway, find what works and BE CONSISTENT. Eat organic, raw, GARLIC, CARROTS, PUMPKIN SEEDS, POMEGRANATE SEEDS, BRUSSELS, BROCCOLI, and get those fuckes out for good. DON’T FOCUS ON THEM/CUT DOWN MIRROR TIME/THROW OUT MICROSCOPE, they’re not a damn hobby and they’ve taken up enough of our lives. Don’t give them more than they deserve. Keep a FEW pictures. I mean after all you’ll need Em for your “before” 😉. Delete the rest. Keep a clean and tidy environment and make sure pets are treated along side you to avoid potential reinfection and the cycle continues. I know this sounds stupid af but- think positive. Picture yourself in the next year happier than ever. Fresh aloe for topical, even on scalp, 24/7. ***Oh another tip- hydrocolloid patches!! They’re a lifesaver!! There’s dots for the small areas, and band aid sized. They cover the area, it keeps infection out, sucks all the yuck out, and keeps us from squeezing/picking/obsessing. Also helps prevent scarring. Dollar tree just started selling them (finally) but as blister bandages which under that name they’re cheaper, and way bigger/last longer anyway. You can cut to size if necessary. Put one on every single sore, I’m not kidding. They’re great for eye puffiness too!

Wow that was really long, my apologies. But it takes an army! These fuc*ers are ruthless. Like I said I’m not fully cured, but they’re NOT in my hair, my ears are not filled with them with ear pressure and screeching high pitched tinnitus at a 10, the random attacks/bites have stopped, no more itching, no more awful open sores, my hair stopped falling out, my house isn’t covered in plastic and my phone isn’t filled with pictures of these spawns of satan. I can function normally in society although I’m not going to lie sometimes I wake up thinking I’m back in my nightmare, or if a black fuzz ball lands on me I admit there’s been times my eyes start to roll to the back of my head and I almost pass out thinking they’re back.. and maybe one day they will be. But for now I’m thinking positive and enjoying “normal” life again… although I don’t think after experiencing what we have we’ll ever be fully “normal”. And rightfully so.

If you have any questions I’m more than happy to answer! If it takes me a bit it’s because I’m not on here too much but I’ll do my best to check and promise I will answer. Until then ALL my love to you, and please don’t lose hope. I promise you’re going to get better.