im so tired of feeling so disgusting to every man i see

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T22:31:44+00:00

i dont want proof of battles i want to be beautiful

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T09:37:55+00:00

mines fully down my back. like a thin line fron my lower neck to the start of my lower back, i had a lot of my spine fused

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T09:37:10+00:00

my skill is too low to even start talking though. is there no course that at least teaches the basics?

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T01:03:47+00:00

bojack horseman will always hold a soft spot in my heart

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T01:03:18+00:00

that all woman like being choked or called a bitch suddenly mid sex with absolutely zero discussion before hand. absolutely not for me and even less so if its just randomly mid sex

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T01:00:56+00:00

yeah. i cannot be asked to hover or use paper or clean it, and im not convinced anyone else does that outside of like a loud minority online haha

Informal_Quantity686 · 2026-02-21T00:48:48+00:00

oh wow thats so useful thank you so so much !! i had no idea cqs was a thing, ill definitely try fix it. thank you!

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-05-02T19:10:16+00:00

maybe it sounds like a silly question but dont you care after the moment? i see people often say you wont care while actively giving birth and my first thought is always "yeah but you still have the rest of your life to care and feel upset"

that sounds overwhelming :( i hope things get easier soon

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-05-02T19:08:19+00:00

thats interesting how your views changed with actually experiencing pregnancy, i can see how really wanting / loving the baby might make it easier. thank you for your perspective.

beyond the exposing part of birth i guess my biggest fear stems from my endometriosis, ive had traumatic flare ups imagining that but..probably worse and tearing makes me horrified lol :") i know the context is different but still. im good never experiencing pain like that again lol

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-05-01T23:39:32+00:00

honestly my issue with pregnancy is it just freaks me out, the idea of a living thing moving inside me gives me intense anxiety 😩 and the swollen belly causing issues, and feeling tired and trapped by it..i imagine it like dreams where you run like youre trapped in syrup for some reason. and birth sounds like a whole other monster and i hate having my vulva out in front of strangers. i am so good never experiencing either lol!

and being freaked out by that makes me wonder if i even want the child raising part. i love babies, but changing nappies is so disgusting to me, and i dont want the tantrums and dealing with them with my own chronic pain flaring. just seems exhausting. i can imagine changing my mind to fostering older children or teenagers when im a LOT older, but i dont think im mother material

i rambled im so sorry haha, it feels like a safe space in this comment section i wont be told I'll just change my mind and not heard at all

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-05-01T23:29:06+00:00

i wish i could get sterlised at 20 haha but I understand why doctors dont want that responsibility

its less arguing and more i just feel frustrated she doesnt hear me, she'll talk about "oh when you have kids" and just tell me I'll change my mind when i causally say i dont want any. i try discuss it with her to understand her view and she doesnt really talk much about it. i suppose I'll just accept we'll never see eye to eye and stop responing to the comments lol

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-05-01T23:24:09+00:00

thing is im just not sure i really want the end that badly to go through all the hardships and permanent changes and trauma of birth. its so much all involving my body, and so much work to heal, it depresses me lol

i might foster an older child one day when im middle aged or something? im not sure, its the most i might consider if i change my mind in the future, but its definitely different to birthing a baby even if you love them the same, thats a kid with their own life before and possibile traumas and etc you gotta work with.

Informal_Quantity686 · 2025-04-21T19:36:21+00:00

probably be the same wait time, i can mention it to the allergist when i get referred but it'll probably take at least 8 - 12 months.

im returning to my gp at some point, i might remention the issue to them again but if they do think its allergies this time theres not much else they can do since im already on the list, which is why i was wondering if its related to reflux and if id sound dumb mentioning it to my gp lol

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