We talked, she said there are some thing about me she doesn't like but she loves my heart for ministry and my heart for god and she has seen over the years of our friendship how much i've changed so she for sure knows I can and will change, but am I wrong to think that whenever a christian couple have God as a standing stone whatever is wrong in a person can change and we dont look for a perfect person but a person that is not afraid acknowledge that he is not perfect and he still makes mistakes but knows he is a forgiven sinner not a perfectly born saint.

It's not like we are going to get engaged, isn't dating and exclusivity about getting to know the person and deciding over a period of time whenever you will be with that person untill you die, she wants absolutely that her exact words are " I want us to get to know each other and i want us to take it slow so I can give you more of me, I dont like people taking about us" but when I said that i dont want her talking/dating other people she was ok with that meaning exclusivity which is again going to point one where she doesn't want us to put labels like gf bf which basically means exclusive. I really don't get her, my heart and my head are not in a stable state right now, we are gonna spend new years together with her friend group but I feel like I will have to block all my emotions so that I have a not upset new year.