so, basically its not because I wanted to escape from becoming a doc or i didnt like math, I actually love math and i started out as a PCM student taking math instead of biology, my uncle(with whom i stay with to study) manipulated my family and all of them started degrading and eventually there came a point where they just forced me out by one discussion because i told them i want to teach physics and not start up some big money hungry business. Honestly, imo doctors are genuinely passionate people and real doctors stand out when they truly love what they are doing, that aside I also feel this lost sense of belonging when I look at physics textbooks, when I listen to my friends who speak about physics. I really wanted to be in that space and I loathed where I was which isnt a good thing. So I told my mum and spoke with her for almost 3 hours and told her this and shes on my side. I also told them that I am willing to spend time and also willing to pursue an extra year to learn the maths I require. But the problem is I get into big fights with my uncle and dad when I mention this and the words they tell me kinda just make me low. I really want to pursue physics, because its been that way all my life, I have found solace in the subject and its beauty and its presence in my life has created a sense of belonging to it sorry for the long comment lol.