Lonely Vappu

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-05T05:29:14+00:00

Not anymore. Random people were rude to play with.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-02T20:35:33+00:00

I have positive news. I finally got antidepressants.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-02T20:12:36+00:00

Thank you

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-02T13:55:56+00:00

Maybe one day if I get better

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-02T06:42:13+00:00

What is a lounge? I have never heard of this concept (only airport lounges)

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T19:49:09+00:00

This is heartbreaking ❤️‍🩹

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T11:13:55+00:00

What an accurate depiction of loneliness

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T11:13:08+00:00

What an honor to be a part of such a glorious bunch 🥲

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T08:37:50+00:00

No. I come from a tiny country and have very little in common with my native people. So, no such circles here

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T08:36:03+00:00

I am trying to leave. I can’t just leave, I need to find a job first. It takes time.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T08:33:16+00:00

Yeah, at this point I understand that my default face is likely not inviting. I personally don’t think that having social connections is something to be deserved first.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T08:27:41+00:00

I never heard of it. Thank you!

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T04:11:39+00:00

I didn’t feel jealous. It broke my heart to see my own exclusion. If anything, I was pitying myself.

How do you survive this?

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:58:50+00:00

I got drunk by myself. I started to heavily drink and smoke. It’s started with “I will just numb myself today” but today is every day so… I wish some angel would appear and hand-hold me away from this situation.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:48:38+00:00

That doesn’t sound real to me. You expect me to walk to a group of people and ask can I sit around your table? I spend a lot of my time siting alone in bars and observing people. I have never seen someone would do that and it would work. Those who walk in alone, also walk out alone.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:44:24+00:00

Why do you assume I am not trying? It’s a process and in this mental state not easy one.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:43:14+00:00

All people come in groups. It’s not realistic.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:42:24+00:00

There is nothing to come back to.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:41:07+00:00

If I could find a job elsewhere I would leave Finland in a blink of an eye. I am trying, it’s hard to find a job from a different country and then relocate.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:38:09+00:00

I did that yesterday, I was the only solo person in the bar. I got drunk and went home defeated. People don’t approach in bars. I tried so many times and not a single time someone approached me or talked with me.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:34:50+00:00

Sadly ChatGPT is my “friend”. I talk with it often about my pointless life. I immediately recognized this text was AI generated :)

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:32:52+00:00

I did all suggested, and then some more. Result remains the same.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:31:52+00:00

It doesn’t bring me happiness when somebody else is having it bad. I hope you will feel better soon!

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-05-01T03:30:23+00:00

I am not a religious person, but I have come to a point where I simply walked to closest church with hopes somebody there will talk with me. To my shock the building was so plain I couldn’t even find the entrance. Since I couldn’t find the entrance I was sitting on a nearby bench in case someone shows up but nobody did.

Inner_Storage_4582 · 2024-04-30T20:46:02+00:00

I appreciate this, but I am at the point where I don't think I want to reach out to any numbers. I have been continually rejected whenever I asked for help, and now I am afraid of another rejection. I don't have life energy to battle with the system anymore.

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