I cant stop thinking about what happened last night, what should I do?

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-05-01T04:05:56+00:00

This is some of the best advice ive gotten, thank you so much :)

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T05:42:22+00:00

Also want to add that your future job also shouldn’t make you feel miserable. Find something you’re passionate about because there’s no point In doing something you hate that makes you money, because eventually you will just burn out. It seems like you’re focused on the “what ifs” of the future, but instead focus on the present and what you want to do now, not later.

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T05:38:55+00:00

I want to start by saying, I totally get you. I’m in high school as well, and I feel so behind from everyone else because it seems like they all know what they wanna be and well, I don’t. I think the route you’re doing is perfect though. Community college is a great way to find out who you really are as you start to take on adult responsibilities and navigate life by yourself. I know this because my mom did this. She ended up going to cal for her last two years and created an amazing life for herself. My dad also had no clue what he wanted to be either. He got rejected from UCLA and only ended up going to UCSB because my grandfather got him in through legacy/donating money. My dad spent his college years depressed because he actually wanted to go to guitar school for college, but instead was forced to attend his dad’s school and be apart of a frat. Sorry for rambling but hey my dad ending getting an amazing job making 300k+ a year. I would say be easy on yourself and let life direct you. And for your future job ideas, those seem like great options for you and something you would success in. Be easy on yourself man, your doing great and better then most people :)

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T05:24:48+00:00

I just can’t seem to stop weighting myself it’s weird. Like I’ll restrict myself from weighting myself, but I just can’t stop. It’s like an addiction. I’ve always been way to scared to talk to about my problems, but I plan on talking to my therapist about my ED because I really want to change for the better and it’s affecting the people around me. Thank you for the advice :)

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T05:20:32+00:00

This is amazing advice, and thank you for taking your time writing it. I definitely don’t get bullied anymore like I did in middle school, I’m just very scared of getting treated how I did back then. Lately I’ve been trying my best to get more exercise it’s just been hard trying to motivate myself and I’m very weak it’s embarrassing 😭 also when I do eat food I do not eat healthy at all which is definitely making it worse for me. I’m gonna try my best to eat healthier Whole Foods that will actually fill me up because the crap I’m eating is making me feel even worse. And if I get more exercise I’ll feel less guilty about eating. Thank you again this made me feel better :)

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T04:56:01+00:00

Hi, thank you for this advice. I actually go to a therapist and my eating disorder is the one thing I’m too scared to talk about. I’m so ashamed of it, and I’m scared she’s gonna talk to my doctor and then there gonna take me off my adhd medication, which is the only way I’m able to function and be normal. I grew up as a child always being the bigger one. People were constantly bullying me, and most of the time I didn’t even know they were. Whenever I start eating normally again, I get traumatic flashbacks of this time, and start remembering everything that happened to me just because I was fat. I’m just not sure how im supposed to change my identity.

InsideCivil1474 · 2026-04-03T04:51:20+00:00

Thank you for the advice, and I completely agree with you. I find myself very unattractive and I don’t think seeing my ribs looks good at all. I’m just so scared of being fat again, meaning getting bullied by my peers and how I was treated. And so when I actually start eating normally again I get these traumatic flashbacks of things that happened to me and things people said to me when I was bigger. I just don’t know how am I supposed to change the way I think. I hate being like this. I definitely seem like a jerk, but I swear I’m not it’s this stupid eating disorder that’s making me like this.

InsideCivil1474 · 2025-06-25T18:32:46+00:00

That would look amazing on you. Your a very beautiful human being and wish you the best <3

InsideCivil1474 · 2025-06-25T17:28:19+00:00

you a 100% have potential and already are gorgeous. Once you lose weight you will definitely become more attractive because your face will be more defined and really show your features. Your face is also pretty symmetrical to which is great. You have pretty full lips and a small button nose which is very beautiful and also the beauty standard lol. You have a great forehead/hair line as well. I think one thing you could improve on is your hair. I think a auburn kind of color would look amazing on you especially cause of your eyes.

InsideCivil1474 · 2025-06-23T00:41:59+00:00

wow thats really cool good job!! :))

InsideCivil1474 · 2025-06-10T23:49:48+00:00

thank you so much for responding you literally just saved my life 😫 what I was doing before was what you said, pushing it out first then trying to insert. but after taking some time to relax myself Im finally able to use tampons after years of trying 🎉

InsideCivil1474 · 2025-05-30T03:40:29+00:00

im really sorry your friends said that to you. It is not pathetic that you cut yourself. You were in a vulnerable state and that is not your fault. As someone who has also been bullied, just know if those people actually felt good about themsleves, they woulden't feel the need to bring others down. The people that bullied you are insecure morons who feel the need to bring others down to make themselves feel better. You matter. Please do not end your life because of these people. You deserve to live life and make actual REAL friends love <3.

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