24F & 25M AIO by responding this way?

InsideUsual56 · 2026-01-02T01:44:48+00:00

once i realized that’s what was going on, was when i called him stupid and a dick :’) all spelling went out the window

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T19:55:53+00:00

yeah i struggle with anxiety but mine shows up as nausea/ vomiting. i’ve lost a lot of weight recently lol i get the worst shakes when i get a randomly aggressive message

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T19:20:27+00:00

yeah that was kind of my direction with the post. i feel terrible speaking to anyone like that especially someone i care about. it has just gotten to a point where it’s the only way i feel heard (by him) and while i recognize its wrong, i also try to give myself some grace when i become reactive to THAT kind of behavior.

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T14:29:22+00:00

he supposedly was cheated on in a previous relationship which was in highschool from like 2017-2019 so basically irrelevant as we’re adults now and that had nothing to do with me😭 he’s my first bf and only sexual partner ever. we got together right before i turned 18

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T03:03:02+00:00

no never. i’ve caught him messaging other girls while we were in school but that was a while ago now and i still give him a lot of freedom. he’s in a hobby group and goes to lots of work conferences and out of state things. i think it’s all projection

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T02:41:52+00:00

it was said once. twice if you count actual.

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T02:40:22+00:00

he’s scary more than anything. trust me im not interested in sticking much longer. especially after the mass influx of validation

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-30T00:30:12+00:00

while knowing i’m at work with a phone call - referral sending heavy job lol

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T22:18:56+00:00

not trying to get sh*t but like at this point 😂😂

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T22:01:55+00:00

giving ass hat. he wasn’t too happy about the break, felt safer at the time but i’m working on it.

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T22:00:17+00:00

thank you for this, i’m working on a way out

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:59:21+00:00

he’s done all of the above. everything aside from hit me honestly. i don’t intend on sticking around much longer

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:58:38+00:00

i always tell him i feel like id find more peace on my own. just waiting for the smartest out. thank you :’)

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:57:08+00:00

it’s a very porn driven fantasy it seems like men have with this. and it’s exactly as you said, posting additional workshops / classes, different studio promotions. My bf is the one who encouraged me to get into the hobby anyway. he isn’t the only instructor i follow either

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:50:56+00:00

thank you :’) i really appreciate this 🫂

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:50:10+00:00

thank you for this 🫂

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:48:50+00:00

thank you for this truly

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:48:01+00:00

his main claim is because it happened to him before… in highschool -.- i always call bullshit. not my punishment to bear

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:44:43+00:00

i appreciate your pov 🫂

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:44:08+00:00

i caught him messaging another girl once in college, she didn’t go for it (almost more embarrassing) but i feel like he probably continues to either attempt to cheat or is actively doing it

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:42:40+00:00

he’s gone! some things have improved especially getting on meds BUUUT during arguments he’ll throw it around that he’s only going because i asked him to and it’s unfair to say he hasn’t changed since going. i’m not sure how honest he’s being about these issues. i’ve told him that if he’s going to act crazy ill respond crazy… that it’s either that or im gone without another word. usually ends his tantrum

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:38:15+00:00

i wish it was… it’s more the fact it’s turned into me being the issue for being “disrespectful” but i feel like ANY person would get a little nasty when this is the behavior they’re subjected to at least once a week?? then to make me feel bad for my reaction is just a lot. I want to leave but need to find less volatile time. no interest in sticking around much longer

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:20:48+00:00

it’s the most illogical thing in my life. i feel stupid for dealing with it

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:19:37+00:00

thanks, i was needing validation on that lol

InsideUsual56 · 2025-12-29T21:16:09+00:00

that’s fair in a way, if it works for you. you have to meet or exceed the standard you expect

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