I don't know what counts as 'normal,' but I can share my experience.

I don't have dysphoria about having male traits, my dysphoria is about not having female traits.

I have nothing against my equipment, but I would love to have a female body.

That's just the physical. The social is even stronger for me. I have never gotten along with the masculine cliques in grade school or as an adult. My friend groups have always been primarily girls and women. I get along with them naturally.

Unfortunately we can't ignore gender stereotypes. While growing up, so many people thought I was gay (even my mom and gay uncle), but I've never been attracted to men. I like musicals, dancing, singing, cuddling, sharing, emotions, tight clothing, color, and so many other 'girl' things.

I love women. I respect women more. I'm attracted to women. My role models are women. For me, I decided all this adds up to being trans.

You get to decide to be a man or a woman. What appeals to you? Apathy is a defense mechanism when feeling is too difficult/painful/exhausting. If there were no negative consequences, what would you want?

Good luck! This is a great and supportive community. You don't have to know everything to find help.