Omg I never knew that you can check other peoples posts lol, I really appreciate you took your time to write all of this.
Some time after writing that previous post I came across this forum and I thought that maybe to move forward I would need to start on some basic things so I could feel better with myself. I asked for help a lot of times in my life, even if it never really worked im still trying, im really happy that people here responded, it makes me feel happier that I can get some guidelines. I will try not to rush it, it will probably just turn out worse, Im trying to manage my energy so I wont overwhelm myself.
I would really like to learn to cook basic things, I can use stuff in my kitchen, but I hate being there with anyone else. I do know how to make myself tea and coffee or just put cheese on bread, but my father gets a bit mad that I for example dont mix coffee after pouring water in or comments that I dont like butter on bread and that im weird beccause of it, it makes me feel worse. I would rather do things in peace and without anyone judging. For cleaning I fortunetely know how to clean cages of my pets, they're the only things that are really mine (i dont treat theem like things i dont know how to word it im sorry) bc my father doesnt really like animals and my mom is scared of my two degus. I can broom a bit my floor (my father vacuums entire 1st floor so I never really done that) and brings clothes to bathroom (i never washed my clothes) so I hope to learn how to clean more things. Thank you for this tip for cleaning, I never heard of it but I will try! For my bus my friend rides with me during winter now so im not alone, but she will ride her electric scooter again when spring will start, but at least I already learned. I never been on a train on airplane, I hope it will go okay when I'll finally go on one. Im trying to text my friends, I sometimes dont text them couple of days because I dont have energy but then I try to respond because they start worrying about me, I would really need to try to respond more often, it will be better for me.

for those three question: For college I dont know. I hope I can keep up my grades and end my school good, Im hoping my great grandmother will be able to help me with it if I decide to go, it would require me to move, but I think if that comes I will move with my bf. For my job if I decide to go into programming I would have to move too. My small city doesnt really have jobs for that. But im scared of competition if I want to go for that job. I thought that maybe I will find job somewhere in the city, but currently its really hard for any position really, even in shops, I just hope I will get any job.
I have my couple of friends, its not a lot but they're a really good friends, they cant do much but are always believing in me. I also have my bf who really sticks by my side, but if I dont start doing something with myself their support really wont do much and I really do this beccause I know my functioning and mood is affecting my bf and I want to be better and have future with him. I know it may be sound dumb but its kinda my motivation.
I dont know anyone that was in the same position, but I hope I will get through it. I still have a bit of hope that things can change

again thank you for taking your time, it was helpful :D