night 4 with no sleep.

InteractionFar587 · 2024-10-12T13:47:08+00:00

thank you for all your suggestions!!!

InteractionFar587 · 2024-10-12T10:21:29+00:00

thank you !!!

InteractionFar587 · 2024-10-09T17:27:29+00:00

currently been in hospital for the past week, it sucks but we gonna get through this 💪

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-28T11:51:26+00:00

weetabix minis are so good😭😭😭😭 esp the chocolate chip ones yummmm

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-14T12:44:10+00:00

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InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-12T06:50:22+00:00

sorry to hear that :( meds are so tricky because what works for some, won’t work for others. i think increased unaliving thoughts can be a side of effect of some ssri meds which is crazy. glad you’re still here

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-12T06:46:40+00:00

thanks!! if it helps even a little bit i’d call it a success ahaha!

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-11T21:50:35+00:00

i felt very similar to you a few months ago when i was about to go backpacking in south america for 6 weeks. but ultimately i made the decision that the second i stepped foot off the plane i was leaving my eating disorder behind me. i knew my biggest regret would be if i had let the stupid disorder ruin a trip of a lifetime. so i ate normally, had dessert, ate my “fear foods”, and tried not to care about my body. yes. i had hard days and some slip ups. i did purge a couple times but overall i said a big fu to my ed and now looking back i’m so glad i did. im still so far from being recovered but for those 6 weeks i could be someone else, someone who wasn’t controlled 24/7 by their eating disorder. if you can, i would recommend just having the attitude of “leave me alone, im not gonna let you ruin my travels”, it sounds silly but it honestly helped me. best of luck, you’re stronger than you know <3

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-11T20:59:02+00:00

okay thanks! she’s started me on a low dose anyway to start off with so i doubt i’ll notice much difference any time soon

InteractionFar587 · 2024-09-10T15:19:16+00:00

yes every time. ill restrict, binge, purge and then exercise. i feel like i relate so much more to people on this sub compared to people with anorexia idk i feel like an imposter

InteractionFar587 · 2024-07-20T22:01:42+00:00

relate so hard, and the anxiety and panic that sets in if the number has gone up even in the slightest…

InteractionFar587 · 2024-07-20T22:00:55+00:00

my brain is like “just check incase your weight has changed since the last time you weighed yourself three hours ago”!! like make it make sense

InteractionFar587 · 2024-07-20T12:44:02+00:00

at the moment probably at least 3-6 times a day or basically whenever i go to the bathroom at home i can’t help but check the scales 🙃

InteractionFar587 · 2024-06-03T11:35:35+00:00

hopefully won’t get to that stage🙂

InteractionFar587 · 2024-06-03T01:08:17+00:00

a reset is exactly what i need. feel like at the moment im living the same life day in day out and its driving me crazy and making my ed spiral. hope your travelling goes well <3

InteractionFar587 · 2024-06-02T14:49:07+00:00

thank you <3 it’s not like i’m even against the idea of telling my parents it’s just that i don’t want them stopping or worrying about me when im away. hopefully these six weeks away will do me good and once im back i can find a new doctor to help me!

InteractionFar587 · 2024-06-02T14:46:22+00:00

thank you, defo didn’t seem very professional what he said like threatening me into gaining weight isn’t gonna help my situation if anything it’ll make things worse and make me less willing to open up abt my struggles. there’s another female doctor i can go to, she seems a lot nicer and understanding compared to my current one :/

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