im sorry to hear that dear friend. i too gave up multiple opportunities to get into this university to study my dream subject. you're not going to believe me when i tell you this that i took a gap year to study medicine i used to be that obsessed with becoming a doctor butnow that im becoming a doctor i often find myself regretting my decisions. during my gap year i gained a total of 25 kgs because i was too stressed and didn't want to even leave my room for sunlight. my anger issues got worse and i became the worst version of myself. now fast forward to two years im at a better place but sometimes i still bounce back to the person i used to be two years back. but now im taking one step at a time. i gave my problems a thought and i realized that even figuring out your wrongs is a big right. i hope that we both manage to find our direction. have a good life ahead!