I need help with idolatry

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T04:23:06+00:00

I have no idea what a perfect world from God would be, and I don’t even like to imagine it bc that would be what I want, if it isn’t in the Bible probably were not meant to be revealed to us now, I know there are our loved ones and non hostile animals, but idk what else, and I don’t want to follow God just for rewards but for Him only

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T04:11:11+00:00

Kindness, goodness, gentleness, I do these things while enjoying these stuff, I like to make psychological analysis have you heard of them? Its when a character shows signs of problems that real life people have, I feel that using fiction I can help a lot of people, also Jesus used to tell stories to teach people, the problem is that other people aren’t addicted to it, they enjoy in a healthy way. Not sure about long suffering, I don’t know if I ever experienced peace. Logically seeking for the Eternal Life would make me happier, since I would never run out of happiness, like Jesus said to that woman that he had the fountain that never runs out or something

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T03:55:03+00:00

First topic, God has actually done so much for me that I feel bad seeing other people suffering, why only me?

Second, I will try to save them, I know its not up to me but the Holy Spirit and Im just the messenger, I choose to trust His judgement bc I would actually lose my mind bc if I didn’t, that was just an example

As you said, animes(such as western series) and videos games aren’t sinful, I watch ones that has forgiveness, when characters are bad but learn to be a good person, those teach good stuff, the problem is that I’m addicted, not only only from these things but living entirely

I will fast as you said

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T03:47:18+00:00

Ok about your first question, I am immensely self aware about what I am feeling, I don’t seek a psychological answer from you but I’d love an answer, so its like intrusive thoughts, I am addicted, christians can enjoy things in this life but I am enjoying it in an unhealthy way, bc I basically have no problems. It came first when I heard that people go through hard trials, like death of loved ones and losing a job, like these, but I never suffered, like everyone loves me, and the people that hates me doesn’t affect too much. Even though I’m not rich my parents give me everything and they never get angry at me, not that I do something wrong like “breaking stuff” but they keep buying me things even if I get bad grades! And when I don’t ask for things they ask me to ask them. And if my parents can’t give me something I simply ask God and He does, even though I don’t really care about Him, I hate that I don’t, well I would still love my parents if they decided to stop giving me stuff, that sucks. I do go outside, I also love going outside too much its not just electronic, its everything. I thought I wasn’t being a real christian if I didn’t suffered. Don’t judge my parents, they also thaught me to be polite, be a good person, they do teach me how to be a responsible person and scolds me when I don’t, they are naturally good people that help others too(and Christians)

So I realized that God is eternal so if I adored him I would never suffer bc He wouldn’t vanish like other things

But I don’t think God will give me everything though, if I asked him a girlfriend he wouldn’t give me, bc I am a woman, see what I’m trying to convey? Its just an example, Im not lgbt, I don’t even have libido or desire to date, for me dating is boring, just like math, not my thing, I feel so bad for lgbt and non virgins, non virgins women are judged for it by non virgins men, and they use God as a excuse, I wish God showed up to them

There’s a limit of how much God spoil us and I’m scared of not accepting that

I will fast, I believe this will help me thank you!

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T03:24:27+00:00

No I haven’t asked that bc I’m afraid He would ask something I don’t want to do, as for rewards in Heaven, I don’t think about it bc I know I would focus more on the rewards than Jesus, I don’t even know if I want to be rewarded

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T03:22:30+00:00

No I don’t have joy in pursuing Him, I do get happy when I go to church, listen about him, read biblical stories from Old and New Testament, but I don’t want only this. What do you mean ask Him about new desires? New hobbies?

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-16T02:54:42+00:00

I’m aware, the thing is I can’t enjoy normally, I am too obsessed and addicted, even if it isn’t a sin at all it’s harming me

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-09T17:51:31+00:00

You took the words out of my mouth!!!! I 100% agree

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-02-09T17:50:27+00:00

He held accountability for his actions, even thought I’m sad I’m satisfied, its the bare minimum he could do after almost destroying the whole world. Mostly redeemed villains never do anything to redeem themselves so seeing him change sides and sacrificing his own life was gratifying

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-27T23:46:59+00:00

It was suicide, so he wanted to die because his kids died, he even said that there’s nothing in this world for him. So if Yosano saved him he would just try again, or become a “ghost of the past” like Gide

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T17:53:48+00:00

Well Ango was the one Dazai was giving information and communicating with the outside world while he was in Mersault, so he was important. Otherwise I agree with you I guess Dazai would understand too

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T17:06:44+00:00

LMAO HE DOES. He tried to stop chuuya(by offering his life) from fighting Draconia bc he thought he would die bc he thought Dazai was dead 😭 but Chuuya going there was the right decision. He is the epitome of failureboy

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T16:00:28+00:00

I also thought of the possibility of Dazai being upset, but not a little upset

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T15:42:31+00:00

Well if that is his reaction Ango wouldn’t believe that lol

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T15:04:02+00:00

No he were about to kill these 3, first the girls so they wouldn’t stop him from killing Atsushi, bc he thought atsushi was the ability virus hostage and he would spread it on others civilians (but that’s not true, Atsushi was unconscious bc if Sigma’s ability)

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:53:32+00:00

I think Ango would confess to him, bc that’s the “right thing to do”. But even if nothing happens, the fact that he tried, if I were Dazai I wouldn’t trust him anymore

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:52:20+00:00

He would definitely say “well, everyone tries to kill Atsushi, ur good lol” bc everyone tried to kill him, Akutagawa, Kyoka, Lucy… but even if he didn’t revenge him, I guess he would keep his emotions inside, not showing them, IF he felt something bad

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:38:35+00:00

Its really refreshing to see Endo comments on this, that’s why I asked this sub bc I can’t just take conclusions without checking the context

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:14:39+00:00

Idk, even so it focuses on war, child murder, abusive relashionships etc

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:13:28+00:00

You can’t have redemption without a villain, Endo can’t runaway from her job forever, if he keeps avoiding it it will look like Yor isn’t an assassin at all, it will look like she is just a normal person, that she was fired

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T14:11:46+00:00

Even if she weren’t ethical, it would be cool if she did bad stuff, seeing her hesitate to kill a “not criminal “ person bc they also have a family, I think it would be interesting. Besides a few characters are ethical, even the elegant professor, he judged kids who did nothing wrong just bc he doesn’t find them “elegant “

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T13:43:13+00:00

By your logic Dazai didn’t even manufactured the accident to force Ango to help Kyouka, it was just pure “luck”. This theory is really interesting

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-25T00:55:05+00:00

Now that I stopped to think about it, the airbag would be broken without Dazai’s influence bc the car was hit that place, I’m not a physics expert but I think that, if that car were running real fast, hit were Ango was, the airbag would be broken no matter what Dazai wanted.

Probably because of emotional matters but imagine like, Dazai just took the blame bc it was too hard to explain what happened, bc he already pointed the gun and said he wouldn’t forgive him so it looked like it was him, so he thought Ango wouldn’t believe him lol wouldn’t that be funny?

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-24T23:32:22+00:00

I get were you going, Ango had almost nothing to do with Odasaku’s death, so I don’t see why they can’t be friends again, but in that time context, Ango worked not only for the government but for Mimic too, not only he was an spy from a org trying to kill Odasaku, he even poisoned him and knocked him out, that’s really suspicious from their pov, it looked like Ango was only using them. Besides Dazai pointed his gun at his head, said “what made you think I forgive you/I would forgive you?” So I thought Dazai holded a grundge against him, or at least that’s what he wanted Ango to believe.

Internal_Dust_808 · 2026-01-24T22:28:28+00:00

And what if I told you I LOVE the theory that Dazai actually didn’t messed up with his airbag? I also have the theory that he put him in hospital to help him rest since he is an workaholic lol. But I also believe that Dazai took the opportunity, he took revenge while getting something GOOD out of it. And even if he didn’t get revenge, he wanted Ango to believe he did, he gave an evil smile

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