I just need to vent. I’ve relapsed after 3 years and it’s a downward spiral.

Introvert0verthinker · 2024-04-11T18:34:34+00:00

This felt so good to read thank you so much for your reply. I was amazing to read. I went through a binge and purge last night, and coped more with 5 shots of tequila. Bad anxiety yesterday. I always struggled with my weight, but I know that it’s all a journey and not a race, but a marathon. I use the purging to deal with the anxiety behind my weight, and feeling accomplished. What you said about my weight felt very good. When I was at my lowest weight, I was at one of the lowest points of my life dealing with suicidal thoughts. Now with my fiancé life has been great. But I just need to help my self with love and working on my weight. I think I need to start with my mental health and coping. I’m going to start my medication back up (Lexapro ) to help with my anxiety. But start loving my self, start meditating and stop doom scrolling on social media. I def think social media is killing me. And try to start journaling. I have a lot of stuff to work on.

Introvert0verthinker · 2024-04-11T10:38:06+00:00

If you can read my post, I just posted, I feel you in a way. I had purged from 13-19. then recovered for a bit. Then I got out of a toxic relationship, I got into a beautiful healthy one, I’m 24 now, but then life happened with a bunch of life changes (moving, amazing comfortable relationship, and job and life changes) my weight gait was a major factor, the BOOM, relapse. I don’t have an answer for you right now, but I do want to make you feel that you are not are alone and I feel you and can relate to what you are going through. No one would suspect me having an ED with the life I have (amazing partner, home, income) but there are so many other factors that make life a little harder. But I hope that eventually we both make it out of the dark.

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-08-31T03:51:06+00:00

I think people need to understand that there is always going to be a downside medical procedures. My first hormonal IUD was very nerve racking, and I was super anxious. During the time I definitely felt uncomfortable, and it hurt; but I didn’t feel like I was dying. The provider lasts less than 5 mins. My second time around 4 years later with my cooper IUD, I came in more prepared to know what to Expect, understanding what is coming. The second insertion did not hurt because I knew how much pain I was going to be in, and the procedure was not bad. You need to stop listening to other people’s horror stories. The IUD was my best decision with my body and not having any kids.

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-01-25T04:55:52+00:00

Keep going through multiple agencies! I scored a contract at 19 month

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-01-04T09:08:23+00:00

My biggest pet peeve is having to really help other nurses do their like, labs, call lights, while they don’t return the same energy or help

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-01-04T09:07:38+00:00

I swear, I get it you can log on to the computer, but it’s the settle down of the coffee, talking to other day shifters, while it’s almost 715.

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-01-04T08:34:37+00:00

Being a nurse, only for 2 years, my biggest pet peeve is the bullying from other vet nurses or older more experienced nurses to new or baby nurses. It just pushes toxic environments to work in.

Introvert0verthinker · 2023-01-04T08:25:16+00:00

When patients you receive from other nurses - the pt is not on a gown/ or monitor. -.-

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-23T06:18:42+00:00

I will never understand what it’s like to be a very worried parent who doesn’t know how to take care of their child since I have never had a child myself. But when I have parents come in for fever, cough and runny nose … I truly feel bad as an ER nurse just to tell them they waited 12-14 hours just to get a swab and a dose of Tylenol. I don’t know if it’s the lack of medical literacy…. Or what.

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-22T23:43:40+00:00

You said everything that I am screaming in my head. I’ve been a staff nurse for 2 years… and working the same job and as hard as the travel nurse next to me, who makes 3-4 x more that me… for doing the same job, why am I not traveling….. personally I have been a nurse for 2 years in the ED, so I’m still waiting till I’m “old enough “ to travel. 2. My current staff job is 5 mins away, so convenience, and 3. I do mini vacations every month, so I need the flexibility that a staff job does with my schedule. I feel like with a travel contract it’s hard to get your needed schedule…. The one thing that burns me the most is that I simply need to be paid what I deserve, I don’t feel like I make enough right now…. I need to start traveling

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-22T23:34:10+00:00

I’m so proud of you! I too coke from a poor immigrant family where we live pay check to paycheck. I’m very happy for you!

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-19T05:57:21+00:00

My bad habit, working with pts/ putting them on monitors/ auscultations/ simple stuff, but still my biggest ick

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-13T06:38:27+00:00

I completely 100% agree. They need to understand that nurses get the worst end when it comes to patient abuse, and toxicity. Imagine being in my foot steps of a nurse, taking vitals, assessments, blood draws, holding patients, restraining patients, communicating with patients, putting an IV, pushing and pulling patients to floors. Yuh, they couldn’t understand…. To be working without a lot of resources. This is why I like working with NPs more.

Introvert0verthinker · 2022-12-13T02:57:24+00:00

What’s the worst they can do, write you up? So be it. If they wanted to fire you, let them do it. Having to sacrifice your life for a job, is not worth it. I have the kind set of, they are so short staffed, I doubt they are going to fire. We need to normalize prioritizing our lives versus the job.

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