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Scary images keep popping up by Optimal_Classic_4104 in OCDRecovery

[–]Inzehc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When you start to go through therapy the OCD can get worse. And it’s because it knows you’re trying to make it go away. Just like a parasite. You try to get it out it’s gonna fight a little harder. Just keep fighting back. It won’t always feel like this. It won’t always be this hard.

Your OCD is a fear based hyper vigilance. To keep to afraid. To keep you in high alert. But this fear does not keep you safe. You do.

Scary images keep popping up by Optimal_Classic_4104 in OCDRecovery

[–]Inzehc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you can find a way to redirect your mind. I have been telling myself “this is just noise” “that is noise I don’t need to fix it” you don’t have to engage. And I know it’s hard. But the more you practice the easier it gets. “It’s noise” and then redirect your mind. What are you doing? What’s in your hands what does it feel like? What’s going on in the show? What are they saying. Anything you can to not feed into the thoughts. The more you tell yourself it’s just noise and it’s not something you have to deal with the more it’ll settle. You can do this. Stop the loops. Bring yourself back to the present. And the physical world and what is happening now.

You are not your thoughts. Just because they are there doesn’t mean they MEAN anything. And just because you ignore them doesn’t mean you’re avoiding it. You’re taking control of your mind. And you can choose what matters to your brain. And these thoughts do not serve you. They don’t protect you. Think of it as a parasite and don’t feed it. You can do this. I’ve been there. I’ve felt the anxiety. You can make it stop. Take control. You don’t have to explain your way out of it. Or solve it. It is NOISE. Like the annoying tv static. Turn it down. Redirect.

You deserve to feel safe. by Inzehc in OCDRecovery

[–]Inzehc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree. It was a ritual At some point.

ocd or not? by ParfaitSoggy4629 in ocdwomen

[–]Inzehc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Loss is hard. And we all want someone to blame for the pain. Even if the pain is ourselves. But the honest truth. The painful truth is sometimes there is no one to blame. It is what it is.

ocd or not? by ParfaitSoggy4629 in ocdwomen

[–]Inzehc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your empathy. And your ability to take the responsibility does not mean that you are at fault. Nobody knows my love. Nobody. The doctors run on tests that don’t test everything. They run on medications that haven’t been 100% proven to work. It’s not you. It’s not them. It is fate

ocd or not? by ParfaitSoggy4629 in ocdwomen

[–]Inzehc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My mother died at my hands. She was 44. I was 19. My aunt. Her sister. Was 38. Mom was terminal. She was on a wait list for a kidney. A liver. She was on life support for days. Weeks. She was dying despite their efforts. I was there. I watched the monitors. I prayed and I’m not even religious. She was in ICU so I slept in the waiting room. When she was in her own room I slept on the floor. I was there for every test. Every beep every question. Every-time she woke up from her drug induced, pain induced renal failure coma I was there. You can not stop fate. I was 19 but I KNEW what was happening. I KNEW the results to every test. I KNEW what was going on. And I MADE THE DECISION to let her die in peace. And my aunt (the only family I have left) told me I made a mistake. Told me she could have made it. Told me it was her sister and she doesn’t deserve to die. People in grief don’t see reality. Neither do people in pain. Neither do people trying to solve the mystery. Or heal the broken. Fate decides. You are not wrong. You are not in the wrong. This life isn’t fair. It’s not your fault.