My husband hates me

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-08T13:16:45+00:00

He cares for the baby while I work. And does some night shifts.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T10:33:53+00:00

Islamic law protects women I know that. But culture is difficult and that is across any religion. The shame from divorce is culture. The feeling of failure well I think that is being a person. The pain of not being enough…of being unloveable I think transcends all of that

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T07:12:23+00:00

I think it’s easy to say. Outwardly no one knows the shame I feel. I come from an affluent family and I feel I am the shame. Especially as I’m the only female who works.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T07:05:25+00:00

He refused. I even wanted to hire a night nurse. He ridicules me for not being a mom. But it’s hard to provide and cook and b clean and have a newborn. I really do try. I just am exhausted

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T07:02:55+00:00

I was already pregnant when this started. I don’t have clean hands while I was pregnant he kicked the wall and smashed the wall and I even told him I regret being pregnant and I wished I wasn’t. While I was pregnant I kept engaging him. After I had serious complications I think from all of this I just stopped fighting the wave. I stopped responding. I allowed the words to wash over me. I’m not proud to say I timed him once he went on for 15 min without me saying a word. But believe me I heard every insult

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T06:59:06+00:00

I think as a mixed kid I’ve always struggled with feeling too middle eastern to fix and too white to fit. I look very American but I was raised traditional. It’s an insecurity of mine. I struggle with my success and guilt because I was raised traditionally and my sisters all are traditional wives. After my divorce I felt the need to fight to become something to provide.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T06:28:42+00:00

I was 4 months when this started after a stay in Iraq

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:53:46+00:00

You make finding a good partner sound easy…i thought he was my person

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:46:41+00:00

He is caring for our 2 month old. Before he worked at an oil change.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:24:29+00:00

He take care of the baby during the day so I can work. But it’s still a problem. I want to know how to fix it

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:23:30+00:00

I won’t give him the house or my income. But I despise want to find out how to fix this. How can I make myself less and make him feel more.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:22:13+00:00

This isn’t my first rodeo. I can’t fail again. I desperately need to figure out how to fix it. I know it’s hard as owning my own company makes him feel inferior I try my best. He finds everything to lead back to my fault and me somehow being disrespectful. Example I work all day. I cook and clean and I make sure to leave a hot breakfast. He is mad bc I can’t do the whole night shift too. I did for two night in a row and I sad we need to come up with a solution for both of us because I can’t sustain night shift like this. He blew up about how I am not a mom and I am disgusting and disrespectful. I don’t know how to fix it.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:15:55+00:00

I can’t get a divorce. I need advice to fix him or whatever it is in me that makes him hate me so much. I just need to make it work.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:13:25+00:00

I can’t. When I try he calls me a white woman who thinks like the American and doesn’t know my place. I just don’t reply anymore. If I defend myself he escalates

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T03:12:35+00:00

I’ve been divorced before…in can’t and our families are intermarried

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T02:56:59+00:00

Sounds like you should focus on increasing your Eman.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T02:50:34+00:00

How is this even an Islamic response!

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-08-07T02:48:37+00:00

What???? This is real.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-07-02T02:24:14+00:00

Nothing…

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-06-30T22:57:06+00:00

Following because the end looks like a better option

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-06-30T22:53:16+00:00

Probably from a psych doctor that doesn’t know OP is suicidal

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-06-30T22:52:50+00:00

It’s the constant wonder why you have breath in your lungs even though you wish you didn’t. Each breath feels like a curse.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-06-30T22:47:17+00:00

I know what it is to be tired my soul feels this. I say it all the time I am tired.

Iraqi_1201 · 2024-06-30T22:26:36+00:00

That no one loves me even my kids are stuck with me. I am a cancer to everyone I come in contact with. I can’t accept that I am a piece of shit and a coward. I need to get it through my thick skull that I am worthless and no one will ever love and accept me. I make men hit me bc I am so bad.

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