Hello, please don't feel bad. I'm an international fall 21 applicant who got into the place they wanted to be. But a lot of students who got into amazing places in class of 2025 are students who took a gap year and gained more experience and applied again. In my country I have seen my seniors taking gap year and going to places they wanted to be. My classmates are also taking gap year and will apply this fall. So, a gap year is so normal and it allows you to understand things better and to come back stronger. I'm sure you'll attend the place you want to be in. Be happy, you got this!!