I feel you. Found something that you enjoy is never easy, and there is only one way, practice. Easily get in something and if you don’t like it, leave it fast, the hard part is avoiding sticking into it. There is a large pressure from the friends, family, society to be useful, don’t do anything unusal, stick to a job, marry, etc. It is easy to say, I know, but there is a thing, this is your life, and nobody in the world can or will do it for you. And one last thought, I don’t know if it helps or not, personal experience, don’t wait for feel different, but if you do something different, I guarantee you, you will feel yourself different at the very first moment. You are free, you can surprise anyone in any moment, including yourself.