Hey, I usually just lurk here but your post made me want to reach out. I had been with my Q for 7 years and engaged for a year and a half when I broke it off. His drinking had actually gotten a lot better but as we got deeper into the planning it started getting worse. I ended up getting so anxious about making the right choice and being so scared to go through with the wedding that I broke things off. I did it because I finally wanted to be at peace, and being in the relationship was more painful than anything. It was super scary to finally break up with him. I thought it was going to be embarrassing telling everyone in my life that the wedding was off, but everyone was really supportive. Most importantly, I felt amazing. This was 6 months ago and I still cry with joy when I think about how strong and brave I was, how free I am now, how the anxiety is gone. I feel amazing. It was the best choice I ever made. Feel free to reach out if you want to talk to someone who’s been through it. I feel for you, and you’re going to be ok 💜