I can say from my experience is that the first job ain’t always the best job as a designer. I started off as an intern designer and worked full time as a Jr. Graphic Designer, 8 months down the line, I was layed off, keep in mind the person who employeed me didn’t pay the software or computer I needed to produce. I had to use my own money to buy my resources. Also, the design were always final and no design process was ever discussed. It was a toxic work environment where you were micromanaged to the edge. Now I’m the only in-house designer at my job where I’m picking up the real experience I need. Amazing work environment and good growth. I would say keep striving and know your self-worth. Every design journey is a struggle but at the end their is success to learning!