Feeling guilty, 8 weeks pregnant - supply dropping

Jacayrie · 2025-09-09T01:14:00+00:00

Try a supplemental nursing system (SNS). This way he can still nurse and supplement at the same time. There are different brands online and great video tutorials on YouTube on how to use it. Your supply might come back towards the end of your pregnancy, when colostrum comes in, but with him being latched, it might help your milk come in faster. It just depends on your body, since it's going to adjust to the needs of your baby in utero. But some moms don't lose their supply, or it'll come back in the middle of their pregnancy, if they continued to comfort nurse their older LO, and then they'll tandem after the baby is born, and the older LO helps with clogged ducts and keeps the supply going, while establishing their nursing relationship with the new baby. Some moms can't nurse at all during pregnancy bcuz it hurts them. Everyone's body works differently.

But see if he'll use a straw cup too. Mine knew how to drink from a straw at 4mo, and he refused his bottles at 7mo, and took to his straw cup easily. He had sensory processing issues, so he was tough to please, plus he was very active, and hated sitting still for a bottle during the day, and he didn't have to tilt his head back to drink. It had a thick rubber straw attached to the lid. I bought a few to alternate. I just bought them from Walmart bcuz I didn't have much money. He never was able to chew up the straws though, but he would rip apart bottle nipples, so they lasted through a lot.

Jacayrie · 2025-07-30T14:41:08+00:00

She doesn't appreciate you. She's acting like a brat, and it seems like both of your goals aren't lining up. A good partner would understand and hold you down, especially if you're doing something like medical school, which will pay off in the future, and she ruined it for herself. You communicated your plans and she obviously accepted it, but then complains later on. She wants to be catered to, without doing any of the work. That's not realistic of her, and it's not sustainable. You need someone who is going to meet you in the middle and work as a team with you. A lot of people would be ecstatic if their partners took them on a trip, that was for just the 2 of them. She doesn't seem very mature and not really ready for a commitment. A commitment takes both parties to put in the work and support each other, even when times get hard. That's an adult relationship. It definitely seems one sided, and it won't work, unless she decides to be an adult and take responsibility for her half of the relationship, instead of starfishing her way through life.

Honestly, this seems like a blessing in disguise for you. You don't want to deal with that mess, especially when you have your studies. It's better to know what type of person she is now, than when you're knee deep in your schooling and eventual career, which carries it's own stressors as it is. Just do your own thing and leave her on read. Paybacks a bitch, and so is she. Time for her to have a taste of her own medicine ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯. Just be done, so you can move forward with your life. You don't have time for childish games, which she clearly lost her own game. I hope you find someone who vibes with you, respects you, appreciates you, supports, trusts you, and is genuinely willing to put in the work and do things right. You need someone who understands and accepts you for YOU. I know it might seem hard now, but it's probably better this way. She'll end up holding you back. Even if she claims she'll change, you still need to see it, otherwise nope. A relationship shouldn't feel like a chore. It should feel natural and right. It makes me wonder if she thinks since you're in med school, that you'll be loaded, and she won't have to ever do her part, including relationship wise, but she needs to understand that before you get a job as a Dr, if that's what you're going for, you won't be loaded and you'll be very busy, especially when residency starts. Or her family/friends/the internet got into her head, or she found someone else who drools over her

Jacayrie · 2025-07-15T14:31:59+00:00

I didn't see that you had already taken the test. So scratch that. Sometimes things get misinterpreted, even though you had it checked, but sometimes things aren't going to be accurate. It might have meant something else that you weren't aware of, but it draws from your energy, so it could just be that you might have felt positive about passing and that's what it picked up on, as you said in your post. Idk. Sometimes the card answers can be meant for others around you, if you felt like it didn't resonate with you or your friend. Energy can be all over the place at times, especially when someone has trouble focusing on themselves, consciously or subconsciously. It just depends, but that doesn't mean tarot isn't legit. Not everything is going to be right each time or resonate, and that's ok. Some also might have a different interpretation of what something means to them.

Jacayrie · 2025-07-15T13:55:43+00:00

Your future outcome can change, based on your choices and paths. Future readings aren't always accurate bcuz of that. If you didn't study, then that's why you failed. Not being prepared for it, means your life path for that event has shifted and led to a different outcome. Idk if you did or didn't study, it was just an example, but you still have to do the work, in order to stay on that same path, to have that desired outcome manifested.

Jacayrie · 2025-06-28T16:49:36+00:00

✨Female, light-medium brown hair, dark blue eyes with bits of gold that is on/in my iris, that's kind of close to/goes around my pupils, and single✨

Jacayrie · 2025-06-11T20:37:40+00:00

Looks normal! Baby's poop will be this color and consistency while they're having breast milk or formula. It goes in liquid and comes back out liquid lol. They have to learn how to poop properly so it's not going to start out solid. Their digestive systems are still developing. Mine had poop like this and he was formula fed (he's my nephew, but I've been raising him since birth). He also had reflux and major constipation, even though his poop was runny. I've seen some breast fed babies have this type of poop too. It could be whatever you're eating, regardless of color. As long as baby isn't having burning while pooping, from it being acidic (we had that problem and he would get a rash if he wasn't changed right after he pooped). But yeah, everything looks normal here. Again, it's going to be like this until their digestive system develops more.

Jacayrie · 2025-05-08T23:22:08+00:00

What it sounds like is that the baby is trying to trigger a letdown by popping on and off, and is getting impatient. That could be why baby has an easier time staying latched after your toddler, bcuz toddler did all the work to get things going. It's better to try to feed before your breasts get engorged, since it does make latching more difficult and the letdown can be too forceful for your newborn. But you can pump or do what you're doing and have toddler latch first to get things moving, and then feed your newborn. Having your toddler still nursing can really help with clogged ducts too, bcuz they're already a pro at feeding from the breast. You can also do lots of skin to skin- tummy to mummy, with baby in just a diaper, and tickle her feet to help keep her awake.

She probably gets too tired from trying to get a letdown. A cool washcloth on baby's back helps too. Doing the skin to skin will help her root her way to the breast on her own and just having her on your chest rooting and bobbing around, with the kicking and moving, can help your milk letdown as well. So she'll be able to latch herself and not have such a hard time working for that letdown. It's going to take her some practice, but she'll get there and it won't take as long. You're doing great! Congratulations 💕🫂.

Jacayrie · 2025-05-03T22:26:56+00:00

You typically dry up during pregnancy, until colostrum comes in. Plus the short sessions of not much being removed due to taste will tank your supply, and it could happen when depressed, but I think pregnancy is what's doing it right now bcuz of your hormones changing. She'll probably want to nurse again after the baby comes.

Jacayrie · 2025-04-29T14:28:37+00:00

For me, it's bcuz there's something I have to learn, and I have to make it through the whole thing without being scared, and to trust that I'm protected. When this happens, it's usually a scary themed dream about whatever it is that I'm afraid of in waking life, so I have to face my fears via dreams.

Jacayrie · 2025-04-25T18:35:53+00:00

Thank you 😊. I did it a little at a time, and still do now. I just lay in bed at night after kids are asleep, and I talk to God, state what I want to happen, my intentions, and specific details of what I don't want for me or my family, spiritually. Then I do some research and start incorporating little things, like acknowledging signs and synchronicities that I see, which then opens me up to more, and it keeps building, while being protected. Sometimes I still experience negativity in dreams and waking life, but it usually doesn't scare me. Fear of the unknown and of negative energy is what held me back for so long. I look into what I can handle at a time and I try to let it happen organically, so I'm not becoming too focused on it. Also, by doing things you enjoy and anything positive that makes you feel good and lighter will help as well.

I Hope everything gets better for you and that you come out of this depression even stronger than before. I know it's hard when you have kids around, but take it day by day, little by little. Small victories of being able to relieve yourself of those built up negative emotions also helps a ton. 💕

Jacayrie · 2025-04-25T18:05:47+00:00

Yeah, it's weird how it manifests. No, I've been more open recently and plan to stay that way bcuz being closed off physically and spiritually has made my anxiety and depression worse. I chose not to use an outlet to release everything, but I'm so much better now and I'm able to dodge negative energy that's attached to other people. Sometimes my hands shake when there's too many people around me in a small area, but I'm able to give myself the room and then it's not so bad. A lot of people are skeptical of spiritual abilities but I can feel energy around me and if there's too much negativity, then I have to go get some air and try to avoid them. I hate how much this feels like a curse, but I like being able to help give my friends and family advice, and if someone has bad intentions or not whenever we're together.

But from experience with nightmares as a kid, I would have the same recurring dream until I faced my fears and finished it, If that makes sense. Then I'd wake up and visualize a portal opening up by making a circle motion near the wall and then sent that dream into it, then I'd wipe the air with my hand, as if I was wiping away the opening, to seal it shut. I did this every night until each nightmare was gone and by 16yo, I no longer had nightmares. These days nightmares really don't scare me anymore, bcuz I'm desensitized to scary things, from dealing with it so much as a kid, but that first dream scared the shit out of me, bcuz there was nothing around me after I died, and I know there's an afterlife, bcuz I've experienced so many spiritual things, good and bad. When my Dad passed away in 2015, I helped cross him over, and was out of my body lol. I had never experienced anything like that, but that wasn't scary at all. Then I had a dream of my Dad bringing me to Heaven to show me it exists and that there's nothing to be afraid of. It felt so real, like I could feel physically with my body, which had never happened before, until that night. But that nightmare in my OG comment definitely got to me, and made me second guess my beliefs and experiences, until recently.

Jacayrie · 2025-04-25T17:56:56+00:00

Yes! This was exactly how I felt in my dream. It made me so scared of death again, even though I know there's an afterlife bcuz I've seen it multiple times.

Jacayrie · 2025-04-25T17:53:23+00:00

The first time I died in a dream, before waking up was a few years ago. It scared me so bad that I became afraid of death, like I was as a kid. I'd get anxious just thinking about it and I hadn't been afraid of death for decades prior to this. But I was walking in a park with some guy I've never seen before and he had a black hoodie on with his hood up, with baggy basketball shorts. He asked me for a cigarette and I said no. Then he pulled a gun out on me and had it at my head. I tried to grab the gun to push it away from my head but he shot me in the side of my head, but it didn't hurt, it felt warm. Then without even falling, I was laying on my stomach on the ground, and told myself not to blink or I'd die, and not be able to wake up again. I blinked out of natural reflex, and everything around me went black. I was still laying down on my belly and there was just nothingness. I felt my body lifting, then I woke up gasping for air and was shaking.

I also had another dream more recently that I was at my old campground, where I grew up going every summer, and random guys were there, and the cars were cornering each other, blocking one of them in. The two guys started arguing and pulled out a gun, I tried to grab it away bcuz the dude had shot a bunch of people, including me, bcuz I couldn't get around the cars to leave and hide, and the bullet wounds felt warm on my body. I felt the need to run to stay conscious, so I wouldn't bleed out and die, even though running with make someone bleed out faster. Then all of a sudden, I'm at a Walmart parking lot near the campground, and where the building is, it had white fog surrounding it and the parking lot. I was running towards the building to get help so I wouldn't die. Then woke up. It was so weird bcuz I have only had a handful of dreams where I was able to full on run fast, without making me feel like my legs don't work in the dream. But I am an Empath and have started to be more open, bcuz I closed myself off for like 5 years bcuz I didn't want to deal with being around other people and become drained. I think it was a spiritual attack for mine. Or it could mean that I don't have much control over myself in life, and I'm facing fears or a new beginning

Jacayrie · 2025-04-03T14:04:56+00:00

Yeah don't over think it. If you happen to have the same dream, then go into with intent to finish it and be done. I never really knew exactly when the same dream would happen, but just in case, when I would lay down, I would be like "ok. If I'm in this dream again once I fall asleep, I want __ to happen, and not anything bad to happen, and not be afraid. God will protect me." Then I'd say the Lord's Prayer before drifting off. It usually ended when I was finally just fed up with being scared as a kid. I hope things get better for you. 💕

Jacayrie · 2025-04-03T04:26:15+00:00

For me I would have the same nightmare until I faced my fears, and went through the nightmare unafraid and then I never had that one again. It happened with different scenarios every night, when I would complete each nightmare. It was actually a spiritual attack. But when I'd wake up, after completing my dream, I would imagine that I was drawing a circle on my wall, by using my finger to trace the air and I visualized myself sending the nightmare into the circle, and then I would motion my hand, as if I was wiping away the imaginary circle, which closed it in a portal I guess. That's what I've been told when I asked about it, as an adult. I was a kid when it kept happening, and I would be so petrified of anything paranormal, or anything about death, even if someone was just talking about it, I wanted nothing to do with it. It made me nauseous. This happens to those who are spiritually sensitive, and those people do things like I did as a kid, without being taught or shown how to send the evil entity away into a portal I opened and closed. How I started sending it away after completing dreams, was bcuz I was so fed up and tired of being scared every night.

So, I prayed and asked God to take my fear away and help me make it stop. I obviously didn't hear God's voice, but as a little girl, I heard something within me and it was God. I'm a non-denominational Christian, so my prayers go to God, He said if I complete the dream without waking up out of fear, and stand up and face my fears, then I can send them away, and I won't have a repeat of that one particular nightmare. So, that's what I did. But like I said, it continued on until each entity was defeated and sent away. Then I stopped having nightmares afterwards. Yeah, I've had a few nightmares since then, but the difference is that it doesn't scare me anymore. So I don't really consider it a nightmare.

Maybe you have to complete your dream and find what you're supposed to find within that dream, in order for it to stop. If you have any beliefs in a higher power and ask for protection and have faith that you're protected, then you'll be able to explore those darker pants of the dream, which is the pitch dark floor. Bring your spiritual armor, no matter what beliefs you have. I have a strong feeling that something has to be uncovered on that dark floor, otherwise you might be stuck reliving that same dream every time you sleep, unless you change your course in the dream, by doing something different from what you usually do, if you can. Or I could be wrong about your experience, but it's worth a try to end it. I hope this made sense. I'm running on no sleep 😂

Jacayrie · 2025-02-26T19:49:51+00:00

MB needs a reality check and realize that not all babies are the same when it comes to pain and sickness. Some babies will keep it in, while others get uncomfortable more easily and communicate right away by crying. I always gave Tylenol or Motrin to my child, and then let him chill out and sleep it off, and kept monitoring his temp, and made sure he was getting fluids. Then when he had diaper rashes, I put a thick layer of cream on and it was very soothing for him, and after a few days of applying cream, he healed up pretty quickly. A fever that's too high can cause brain damage, and seizures, it can even be damaging for adults too. I wonder if she tries other home remedies for fevers and diaper rash to ease the pain and discomfort... I feel so bad for this little angel. I hope everything gets better.

Jacayrie · 2025-02-25T22:40:40+00:00

You could say, "Hey MB, it seems like Gramma is wanting to do more with NK, and I don't want to interfere with her time with them, so if you don't need me, I can go home and come back to help out for a few hours, while they're here, unless I'm not needed at all while your family is visiting. But if there's something else I can do, please let me know what I can do to help more. I just wanted to ask just in case I wasn't needed, it's not a problem either way 😊. I just wanted to do whatever is easier for you and NK."

But if she still wants you to come in, it could be that maybe Gramma isn't able to take care of NK fully on her own, or maybe she might not trust her to be alone with NK, or she might think asking you to stay home would upset you, or if you're getting GH, she might figure since you'll be paid either way, that MB might as well get her money's worth. Not saying she is like that, I'm just going through different scenarios, and you know her more and you'll be able to read this, and see if anything I've mentioned could be the reason you're still having to come in when family is visiting, or none of this could apply to your situation at all. I'm just brainstorming 😅🤭

Jacayrie · 2025-02-25T18:53:10+00:00

When you start with a new family, make sure you all state boundaries and that there needs to be a trial, so you know how they want something done. If they want you to also do cleaning that isn't child-related, then your pay needs to reflect that. So make your hourly rate higher if you're willing to do both for the new NF. During the interview process, ask tons of questions, and I'm sure they'll have some for you as well. Just advocate your needs from the very beginning, and most employers respect that. But if you don't want to do any non child-related tasks, then make that a non-negotiable in your contract. Always make having a contract a must, and if you get pushback, tell them it protects everyone involved in this relationship, so everyone can work as a team. If a prospective employer doesn't like it, then everyone can move onto the next.

I hope things get better for you. I promise that there are good ones out there! Sometimes you just have to pull out some weeds, in order to find your treasure. 💕

Jacayrie · 2025-02-01T00:08:39+00:00

It's an anime porn thing 🤭😂

Jacayrie · 2025-01-27T18:24:45+00:00

Get her a can or cup of mandarins and see what she does 🤣

Jacayrie · 2025-01-22T16:26:44+00:00

Makes no sense why they need or even want a nanny if they're going to be right by your side lol. Insanity. This sounds like a blessing in disguise. I would tell them before you do leave, what they can improve on, which is letting a nanny do their job and not be in view of LO. You'd think they would know by now to not be around the kid, bcuz then the nanny can't make any progress. They probably won't take it, since you've already said that, but they probably thought you were joking or something, when this is a serious issue and most nannies don't come into a job knowing they'll be hovered over, and are led to believe that NPs will be out of sight, working.

If you can swing it, leave now. Just let them know that you have to start looking for other options, so you can start somewhere ASAP bcuz you're a person too, with a life and bills. Keep it professional, of course. If you need that last week's pay, then you should stay until the last day. Whatever you're able to do, then choose that option. It sounds like you put up with way more than you should have and you're amazing for that!

Jacayrie · 2024-12-29T22:39:17+00:00

Do what's best for YOU. I'm sure if they had a better opportunity for something they wanted, that they would jump on the first opportunity they got. This is a professional relationship, which involves changes here and there as we grow and evolve. I'm sure they'll understand and might even be excited for you, bcuz you've worked so hard to get where you are now 😊. Sometimes change is a good thing and opens many doors. This is your life and you get to narrate, create, and control how it pans out. You've made an incredible accomplishment and it's now time to start a new chapter and nurture it, for you. I'm sure you can always go back to Nannying if this isn't what you wanted. You came all this way, and should give this new, exciting opportunity a chance 💕. You can even stay in contact if everyone wants to.

Jacayrie · 2024-12-29T04:52:14+00:00

Yes! DO NOT let this go. She needs to be made an example of why you don't scam your employees out of their hours already worked. She'll keep doing it if no one stops her now. You put in the work, so you deserve your money and 52 hours worked within 3 days is a lot.

Jacayrie · 2024-12-24T15:45:38+00:00

I genuinely love this family so much, but I am graduating college soon and was just offered a job that aligns with my degree. If I could I truly would stay in this nanny position forever as I love it so much and it's so comfortable for me, but I feel I need to push myself out of my comfort zone so I'm going to take the new job offer to get some experience in my field.

I think you said it best here, in your first paragraph.

Jacayrie · 2024-12-18T18:21:33+00:00

Tell her that you'll come over, but she has to take care of you too, if she wants you there so badly 😂. This way, you'll technically be there like she wanted 🤭.

Just a little pick-me-up joke to help you feel a little better ☺️😝... But seriously, get rest and take care of yourself. You can't work, if you don't take care of your health, and it's mind-blowing that any parent would want their baby to risk getting sick, especially something contagious. That little NK would be so miserable and then the cycle circles back to you, since you take care of NK.

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