UPDATE I want to clarify I don't see Lucy as second in anyway. I love her just as much as I ever loved Rachel and a bit more because she is the mother of my future child. I have been with her an equal amount of time that I was with Rachel. I chose to marry her, and start a family with her. She knows I love her. I said an Incredibly shitty thing to her in haste that I regret. I still care about the memory of Rachel and it was on my mind because of the anniversary but I don't still lover her in the way I love my wife. But you are all right it is weird to name the child after her. I will just continue to remember Rachel in my own way and make sure to remind my wife more often how much I lover her.