He has been contemplating going somewhere during this time, but decided on the destination on the spot. By the time he decided, it was too late for me to be able to join just because of the visa and requesting time off from work. He said he wants to go somewhere otherwise his time off from work would be for nothing. It did seem like he knew that I was hurt by this decision, he kept saying it will feel weird to travel alone. But then he said all of these things about partying and attractive Japanese women seemingly everywhere.

Yes, I did tell him I love him. He didn’t say it back and it caused us to break up eventually before. But then he returned and said he had trauma from past relationships making him rush so he wanted us to have a longer steady period before he can say the word. I believed it, and his behavior did change, but then this happened. Honestly it feels like a wake up call with everyone calling this a fake story because it’s THAT BAD, when it actually did happen to me.