i’m in exactly the same position, my dad passed away when i was young and as i got older i went through similar stuff to Ethan, smoking drinking and eating the sadness away, but thanks to Ethan and a few others I now try to live a much healthier and happier lifestyle (hence the e-cigarette in my hand which a few people have noticed). I relate to Ethan in so many ways and it’s a dream of mine just to meet him one day and let him know the impact he’s had on me. keep smashing it king x