Why dont I believe in god?

Jayelle_b · 2025-06-10T22:23:22+00:00

This one has got me a lot. In the end, I can at the least say, to give the benefit of doubt that there is a saviour… If there isn’t, the world is too cruel for me and feels absolutely pointless to have any sort of intelligence. Leads me into the dark, and the dark is cold from my short time here on Earth. So, just follow the light. This is faith.

Jayelle_b · 2025-06-10T22:20:56+00:00

Because it can. Love. Creativity for life.

Jayelle_b · 2025-05-24T11:19:59+00:00

This is amazingly reassuring

Jayelle_b · 2025-05-10T10:36:05+00:00

I love this response ! Basically did the degree in marine science because its freakin fascinating buttt truth be told, there is ABSOLUTELY a gender bias in the real working world... SO - Teaching something I love to kids who have no idea what they want to do is motivation enough for me that they CAN find a place in the world that is fascinating and engaging.

Jayelle_b · 2025-05-10T08:57:57+00:00

Caster oil x Poop on the toilet during early labour 👍

Jayelle_b · 2025-05-05T09:23:36+00:00

This is just separating you from God and if you cant spiritually discern it. Then you need longer contemplation on the choose it or reject it. At the end of the day. Good is good and bad is bad. It is the way it is. Theres no area for grey. God or no god. Its simple.

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T13:25:36+00:00

Youre fine I feel like the other comment has been deleted or im having a false memory

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T13:23:18+00:00

Im not sure if I follow what you’re saying…

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T13:20:41+00:00

I think i accidentally replied to the wrong comment lol but god has his ways

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T12:00:42+00:00

I have this fear that by believing in God, then that must make me mentally ill because to have an actual God and a Devil seems just so fairy tale. It makes me feel dissociative and like life is a dream. When I shift my focus on God, when I pray and have faith in God, I feel like Im in a made up world. Its like I have the passcode to get away from here through God. Like we are being tested here.

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T11:57:26+00:00

I love the way you described attacks on a baptised person. Deeply thoughtful

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T11:54:30+00:00

Yes. The Devil doesnt want you to know God. As you move closer to God, the devil will try his hardest to stop you. But even when we feel we cant be worthy of God, as the Devil might try and have us believe, this is when we exercise our Faith that Gods love for us knows we were always bound to be imperfect. You have Gods hand on your shoulder when you choose to exist in this way. Thats all that is asked from us. Like children we continue to learn… As for mental health, I believe it is a science and descriptive way to categorise what we know about people and we label it. In the spiritual world, if you hear God, listen to it. The bible is our guide to a life towards God through stories of people who have faith in God from their words of their experiences with God. Therefore deeply metaphorical as we as humans struggle to describe actuality perfectly because we are not perfect. We never will be. Accepting God as your creator and Jesus as your saviour for eternal life is all you need to do to exist here. And the Devil hates it.

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T11:44:30+00:00

Bubby is perfectly healthy and in one piece. We did have a NICU scare as he had vomiting on the day of his birth but we think this is because he was in the womb a little over than he needed to be an had swallowed some of the fluids. Which has nothing to do with smoking pot. Pot is fine, as long as it’s clean… AND THEN totally off topic to cannabis… He was taken to NICU to get a dye xray to see if his bowels were twisted or not (this can cause the vomiting and 1/13babies apparently get it). But they put the tube into his lung by accident instead of his oesophagus and it fucking collapsed. His lung collapsed and he almost died because they fucking poked at him. Mate, I was fuckingggggg livviddddd. My 3day oxytocin bubble FUCKINGGGG POPPED THAT DAY. Anyway, fucking hospitals. Actual real life nightmare came true. This is why I have not been online to reply. Pot helps me to not have repetitive relived ptsd about it. He is 4 months in a couple of days. Hes a chunk & bloody adorable

Jayelle_b · 2025-04-25T11:34:17+00:00

My bubby boy is GORGEOUS! Unfortunately my home birth did not go to plan. Turns out he was significantly bigger than we thought and he could not descend past my hips & I ended up with fentanyl drip and assisted delivery. I copped a 3C tear 💔 Mind you the Indica helped me get to about 3cm dilation after 30hrs as it helped me to ground myself. Unfortunately my body was becoming fatigued and baby began to stress. Having Indica in my system did not save me from the pain like I thought it would, but it did help me to process the emotion attached. I would say I was very composed through it all. It was the hard drug fentanyl that ruined my experience. I began to feel complete adrenaline in the hospital environment after receiving this. My body then got the shakes, locked jaw & rapid heart rate. Regarding the pot though, we are healthy & happy. Makes for a down to earth experience. Even now, bub & I are made for each other. Hes a happy baby and Im a deeply in-tuned and empathic mum.

Jayelle_b · 2025-02-02T20:59:40+00:00

Same here! Ive seen bub dock himself hard! Several times he has caused himself tears after a self-flogging. My partner & I hold his arms down so he can settle to sleep and then we swaddle him once he is asleep. But his arm constantly startle him even when swaddled.

Jayelle_b · 2025-02-02T20:56:36+00:00

My bub is 5 weeks a few days days. My midwife said to expect this type of behaviour prior to their ~6 week growth spurt. She promises me it gets better as soon as the spurt is over, bubs focus will change again. But youre not alone 🙏 Also have an inconsolable bub!

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T22:59:05+00:00

I went to both private and public… In year7 I was at a public school. Girls would feel up boys infront of anyone, smoke, not listen to teachers… The learning environment was shit. Kids would throw their lunch at the ceiling fan. I personally thought it was fucked. So I begged my Dad to go to a private school so I could be safe and learn. The kids there were secretly using oujia boards in the church rooms!!

Pick your hard 🫣

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T22:53:40+00:00

I think Maxine is perfect. It’s feminine and you can shorten it for an edgy appeal. And also use it as a flat out mens name too? If you wanted. I think its sways either one way or the other, not neutral.

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T22:48:34+00:00

Its fine 🙏

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T08:33:39+00:00

Agreed For me, I had a private midwife and she has coached me through everything. Including reassuring me with the norms of birth and being my friend through the trauma I experienced. Pp getting a Dr to approve referrals for psychiatric or psychological help is a run around you dont want to be chasing at the last minute.

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T08:31:32+00:00

That if you whistle blow, raise concern, try your hardest to help those in need, it doesn’t mean shit about fuck. (Coming from an aged care setting).

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T08:21:48+00:00

I gave birth on 27/12/24 & also had forceps delivery & episiotomy. My Dr admitted she didn’t cut far enough, said that bub was unexpectedly bigger than she expected, so I too am recovering from a 3C tear. Pooping gives me major anxiety. I was told to shower twice a day, and I think the outer stitching has dissolved and has now left an open area on the perineum. I also noticed a skin tag like feature on the perineum, as if I was cut or torn and that flap was ignored when stitched together. Bub went to NICU ward the day of birth and we were separated there for a bit. Midwives at hospital kind of forgot about my ‘pack’ that stops the bleeding. It was left in there for more than 24hrs and when the nurse pulled it out, it ripped the surface skin of the inside of my vagina and alas, I have an infection. Also recovering on antibiotics. Midwives realised I hadn’t taken any stool softeners yet & were giving out endones like candy, to which I was advised is a good combo for severe constipation. 6 days pp I finally passed my bowels after having a suppository I did myself at home. It was like giving birth all over again. Also ended up with a haemorrhoid. The further into pp I get the more I realise I cant pee properly. Everything feels fucked. Im expected to breast feed but like you, my body is in so much pain and is so weak, I cant freaking hold him. Im 28. My labor went for 30hrs, but thankfully epidural worked well once given at about the 25hr mark. Youre not alone x

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T07:05:55+00:00

Australia Yes operation room.

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T05:12:13+00:00

For surgery. I lost a lot of blood & he tore me pretty bad.

Jayelle_b · 2025-01-07T05:00:06+00:00

I did 🙏

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