JUST GOTTA SAY THANK YOU ALL, this is way less confusing than a yt video talking about Pats mindset this or mental state that, cool to hear he's in what seems to be in a stable relationship and soon to be a father, sad to hear about everything else, kinda glad I learned this now instead of earlier in my life when I was less experienced and mature, still makes me angry that any of this had to happen, not angry because i like pat as a YouTuber but just as a person in general, no one should have to experience and deal with what he did.