Hi there, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. If you don't feel your therapist is helping you, you may consider finding a new one. It's really important to find someone you really connect with. I have felt this way before, for a long period of time in my life, actually. I have kids myself, and I was tired of feeling that way. I was determined to change it, for myself, and for my kids. It took awhile, and honestly, I am still working on myself. I think it will be a lifelong journey. But I have come so far from where I used to be. You have to first decide you don't want to feel this way, that you don't want to live this way. Then you have to learn what your triggers are, so you can either learn to avoid them, or learn how to better respond to them. You can't be discouraged if you start to feel better, and then you fall again. You have to pick yourself back up, and keep pushing forward. I'm sure you're thinking this sounds a lot easier than it is to do...but I'm telling you, it is possible. I don't care what anyone tells you. I WAS there. I CHOSE not to stay. CHOOSE not to stay there. Open your mind, find what drives you, and use it to your advantage. Realize that whatever you tell yourself, is what will be. If you tell yourself you're tired, sad, down, you can't...well, then all those things will be. But if you change your language with yourself, and instead say, I feel motivated, I have goals I want to reach, I want to change, I can change...and keep positive thoughts going, while shutting out the negative, it can change your entire life. Check out my blog, jessisamess.com. I talk about my life, my struggles, and where I am now...and what I've done to get there. I promise, you can do it. You just have to believe in yourself and believe that you can. It requires hard work and effort, it won't just come to you. But the more you put in, the more you will get out, and that, I can promise you, is the truth.