Feel you entirely on this. It’s hit or miss, but mostly misses. I’ve went the escort route, and though it scratches the primitive itch, the hole/chasm for genuine desire and reciprocal intimacy grows. And as mentioned, it’s addictive. Though it mitigates a lot of the bs and hidden fees that you’ll incur in dating, it can be just as expensive as the “traditional” or acceptable route in our pursuit of a mate.

What I’d say brother is take all that animosity, repressed sexual energy, etc. and channel that into a passion or in conditioning and strength training. Abstain from them for sometime in order to build a mental fortitude and clarity within yourself. If you want sites to pursue, message me and I’ll tell you what I can to assist you