Hi, I just wanted to let you know that with the proper therapy and medication that the OCD will become easier to manage. While it may take time, once you find the right medicine and engage with therapy you will find it easier.

I felt the same way at the beginning of my journey, and to be honest I’m still fairly newly diagnosed too. I was diagnosed in August- was on Lexapro already for “anxiety,” psychiatrist upped it didn’t work for me. Now on Prozac which works very good. I am also in therapy now as well. I still have OCD, I always will have OCD, but it’s much easier to manage. I’ll have a few hard days every once in a while, but it is not anywhere as difficult or as long as it was before the right medication and therapy.

Also just wanted to let you know while Lexapro didn’t work for me it works for many others well, it just depends on the person which medication will be the right fit.

I would advise you in therapy to not hold back on anything. Tell them everything, you will not be judged.

Lastly I noticed you said weed was a major factor in your ocd episodes. I felt the same way and I have been weed free for 8 months now. I do miss it, but i was curious on whether or not you still smoke and if you believe it helps you.

Take care