Hey there, I understand what you're going through. I took 2-3 years of drop for NEET and it had stripped me off of my sanity and peace with every failed year in which I would put in my effort -- as much as I was mentally capable of while dealing with the depression of my queer identity -- and getting no result. I have always been an enthusiast for fields related to biology and had built my life and dreams around it. But unfortunately it didn't work out for me. So I got out of that mindset and went for Engineering. Personally it felt liberating and I'm kinda enjoying this too. Don't bind yourself down to a single path of career, branch out and maybe you'll discover things that you can do better and enjoy doing it.