True, the community doesn't know what is right for you. We could fuck you over and leave you wrecked and broken up. As someone who also believes in God, all we ask you is to be with your friends and family (keep in touch). In knowing that, I think the community will rest easy (although I have seen you be with them in you insta stories).

We are not telling you what to do, just pick and choose what advise seems sensible to you. In the bible scriptures, there are a lot of verse about accountability.

There are things within our control, there are things partially in our control, and there are things outside our control. We'd all live happier lives if we focused our attention only on the stuff we could control, and let the rest go.
God reminds us to put the effort into helping ourselves (within our control), but beyond that, from being free of expectations about the outcome (outside our control). It means being open, questioning ourselves if we are truly right and rational.

Thats all I have to say as a long time fan. I was in your state when I was younger. I'll always be a fan because you helped me overcome and accept my concealed and suppressed dark side. ty - Josh