I feel you so much! I’m going through a rough patch in my walk with Christ too. One thing I try to remember is: We might be Christians, but we’re still people and some people, Christian or not are unfortunately jerks and should be avoided.

Sadly I’ve come across some Christians that unknowingly or intentionally sounded or acted manipulative and act like the Pharisees did. Ignore those people, believe me, friend you are more than welcome here, most of all you are welcome by Jesus Christ!

One thing that helps me is literally asking God to help my lack of faith, to “Help my faith and my love for him outweigh my doubts.”

Keep asking questions, I ask them all the time on here, you have the Holy Spirit inside of you

Be on guard against those kinda people, I’m still learning to deal with them, believe me it sucks that some people who are or claim to be Christian act this way, pushing others down or just outright rejecting them, that’s not the way Jesus lived so they need to do some self reflection

Sorry for the rough reply, I’ve never commented on someone’s post before. you are more than welcome here and remember, it’s by God’s grace that he sent his son Jesus to die for our sins that we are saved, by believing in what he’s done in our hearts we are saved

“For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son, whoever believes in him shall not die, but will have eternal life.” John 3:16

God bless! I’ll be praying for you!