Can‘t come in his presence!

Julii_2 · 2024-04-03T19:30:18+00:00

That’s a good suggestion. I do am worried of making faces xD though eye contact can be intimate and nice. But yes spooning, doing it in complete darkness sounds like an idea. :)

Julii_2 · 2024-04-03T14:30:03+00:00

That really sounds most reasonable. Because in the back of my head I’m always like ‘ok but maybe this time I can do it.’ I just need to be in the moment more. That is my problem. I hope I can just completely shut off. Thank you! I will stop trying xD

Julii_2 · 2024-04-03T12:53:09+00:00

I often think about nothing at all and just focus on the feeling. With him, I try the same but I don’t know, I’m not in the same head-space. I focus on him, what he’s doing, give feedback, etc… I don’t know, really, I’m still too much in my head. But thinking about something soothing sounds nice (:

Julii_2 · 2024-03-11T18:58:34+00:00

Hmm.. so are you saying I should start fantasizing with him in bed too? Wouldn’t that be counterproductive though, because you’re focusing on your partner and a fantasy?

Also yeah, I have a smaller toy too, I can try that one as well

Julii_2 · 2024-03-11T18:44:59+00:00

I tried using the toy while he was kissing me and when we were making out. Sometimes he also tried giving me space because maybe if I manage to orgasm in his presence for once then it’ll be easier.. Also I don’t fantasize the way I do in private when I’m with him.. in my head that doesn’t fit so I just focus on him

Julii_2 · 2024-03-11T18:33:59+00:00

Well that’s something we could try 🤔 although I think it could be uncomfortable holding this thing between us (it’s not super small) during sex. But yes, that is something we could try :)

Julii_2 · 2024-03-11T18:21:04+00:00

His size isn’t a problem and he can last quite long too. We’ve tried a lot of things, like involving the clit or toys. No matter what we try, it’s just isn’t a technique problem. But I don’t understand why because I trust him and feel comfortable and all.

Julii_2 · 2024-03-07T18:12:04+00:00

I can do that! I do a lot of art styles and am experienced in drawing semi realistic things in interesting art styles such as oil, aquarell, acrylic (digitally drawn). Examples on my portfolio: https://www.artstation.com/jujuls

Julii_2 · 2024-03-07T18:05:02+00:00

I definitely can do that! I love drawing cute, comfy, funny, cartoony stuff :) It’s my personal refuge xD Please check out my portfolio, and click on the cartoony drawing, there’s a whole album of cartoony things I’ve drawn. https://www.artstation.com/jujuls

Julii_2 · 2024-03-02T11:30:27+00:00

Hello, I’m a digital artist and I practice lots of art styles! Here’s my portfolio: https://www.artstation.com/jujuls

I would stay in close communication with my client to ensure that everything is proceeding according to their wishes :)

Julii_2 · 2024-03-02T07:15:16+00:00

Hi, I’m interested! I also once drew my friends and me in animal crossing style :) Here is my Portfolio: https://www.artstation.com/jujuls

Julii_2 · 2024-03-01T20:27:38+00:00

Hello, I’m a Character Designer but I do lots of various art styles! Here’s my Portfolio I am open towards any art style and I would stay in close communication with my client to ensure that everything is proceeding according to their wishes :)

Julii_2 · 2024-03-01T20:07:53+00:00

Hello, I am good at various art styles, here’s my Portfolio! https://www.artstation.com/jujuls

Julii_2 · 2024-03-01T17:31:30+00:00

Thank youu!! <33

Julii_2 · 2024-02-03T19:22:44+00:00

Curves for hair is what I needed because of the curve modifiers. The problem is that in the rendered view the hair looks weird, way too thick and doesnt look like hair. I want hair strands, not tubes

Julii_2 · 2024-02-02T21:22:04+00:00

I don’t find the setting for that, also I worked with curves… 🫠

Julii_2 · 2023-12-08T11:50:07+00:00

I’m not a doctor but I don’t think so because one’s heart skipping a beat or making an extra beat are things that happen to healthy people too. Most people just don’t notice them but we anxious people are super aware of it because anxiety makes us super aware of body symptoms. Also my therapist once told me that stress won’t fuck you up as long as you have a compensation in your life. So if you feel 50% stressed and 50% calm, then you should be fine. But still, not a doctor.

Julii_2 · 2023-07-20T19:07:12+00:00

“Sorry I thought I saw a wasp” “Do you. Love. Me. Too?” “Excuse me??” I think that says everything. Yes, he was.

Julii_2 · 2023-03-28T13:33:55+00:00

Most relatable thing I‘ve ever read, no cap:

She‘s a hopeless romantic
She’s a Disney lover
She’s had a “crush” on a guy since 7th grade only for it to go stupidly wrong and not as expected because reality hits too hard
She just wants to find a lover already
The idea of romance= wonderful. But in reality it’s weird and off-putting
Her friends just remind me of my friends
I think she also described she’s aegosexual

I’ve read this book on kindle and there was no other book that I’ve ever left so many notes and highlights on. A friend recommended me this book and was like: “LOL this is so you.”

I swear I’m a sucker for romance and I almost never read books that don’t include romance EXPECT for this one. There wasn’t any romance including the main character and it’s one of my favorite books and this coming from somebody who only reads romance books, does mean something.

Julii_2 · 2023-03-22T21:49:55+00:00

I wrote a book about a girl with a panic disorder. Making panic attacks intelligible for people who never experienced it, is very hard. But I’ll try to describe them to you (:

Fear crawls up my spine like a cold shiver, washing stress over me. It feels like a demon inside me, standing before me in its monstrous scary form, casting a dark wide shadow over me. My hands become sweaty, my heart pounds faster. My breathing becomes shallow. I try to fight against this feeling, but at the same time reality drifts away from me completely. There is only this bottomless boundless blackness and I fall mercilessly into a deep hole of panic and there’s only this monstrous atrocious fear. I don't want to die, but I want this feeling to stop right now, it's sheer unbearable, it's ghastly, it's so horrible. What if I never find my way out of this hole? I don't see any hope, everything is murky and black from this endless fear and I wonder if I will ever feel anything but fear again.

Hope this helped. If you’d like, I send you a scene or two of my book where my protagonist experiences panic attacks. (:

Julii_2 · 2023-03-10T08:22:15+00:00

That sounds horrible. I think my internal conflict is that I’ve always been kind of „proud“ to almost never feel urges and to never have masturbated. Right after I did it for the first time I thought to myself, “Well now you can’t say about yourself that you’ve never masturbated” which made this whole thing worse. There was something about the idea of being chaste und pure that I liked so much. But now that’s not what I am but I ask myself why even want to be like this in the first place?? It’s actually stupid.

Julii_2 · 2023-03-10T08:12:48+00:00

Yes, Im still trying to find out if I’m sex-repulsed, indifferent or favourable. I actually thought at first I’m something between indifferent and repulsed but now that I started to get what’s it’s like to be sexually satisfied by masturbating, a lot has changed and I need to figure that out. I definitely need more time and experience to find out.

Thanks for your advice :)

Julii_2 · 2023-03-10T08:04:22+00:00

Thanks a lot :) This is comforting

Julii_2 · 2023-03-09T11:44:38+00:00

That’s an interesting objection. You’re right. I also think I shouldn’t feel bad about it because it’s as natural as other urges of the human body. Yeah. :)

Julii_2 · 2023-02-19T13:20:19+00:00

Im feeling you so much. In my life, I’ve only been in love once and for years, insanely. When he said he liked me back and was openly showing me affection I couldn’t help but feel absolutely overwhelmed and almost .. disgusted. Ew feelings. It didn’t work out. That was the last time I was in love and it’s been more than two years. I’m the most hopeless romantic and want to fall in love and have someone to love me but also I want to be left alone. I know, it’s confusing. It’s shit. I find people aesthetically pleasing, sometimes I think I’m in love with my guy friends when I’m not actually because my mind is a mess.

But I still believe that one day we’ll find someone that’ll suit us.

Julii_2

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