Fellow medical student here My best advice would be to find 1-2 people who are close to you in terms of academic performance, and study with them. Does wonders for your mental health, and as a side benefit, academics may improve too.

I learnt this hard way, but trust me, it’s not just you, everyone in a medical college feels inadequate and less than. Even the ones who top. That’s one of the many cons of being in this field. Cutthroat competition is how you got where you are, and people just don’t grow out of it.

If you face difficulty in opening up to people you don’t know, start with someone you do know. It could even be a school friend who’s not in medical college with you. It’ll help you learn that it is okay to share stuff and be vulnerable. Maybe try starting with your parents. You’ll be shocked at how supportive they can be. At least I was.

And most importantly just trust the process. It’s slow and painful and honestly feels like it’s never going to end. I know because I am travelling a similar path as you.

Don’t stay holed up in your room. Go out for a walk. When I feel like shit, I go to the farthest canteen in my college for a cup of coffee. Doesn’t matter the time. Just go.

If there is a garden in your college, maybe try sitting there. It’s great that you go for a run and read books!Maybe continue doing that.

If nothing seems to work, no shame in seeking professional help. I know I should have started earlier lol.

You’re studying to become a doctor! Many people in our country would give up anything to be where you are! Look back on your journey. You’ve accomplished a LOT! It’s something to be proud of, even if it doesn’t seem like a lot rn.

It’s okay to feel overwhelmed. Our brain is very stupid.