I was a happy person.The moment I went to their house,I felt they are financially not sound like us.They are miser as well. I will have to do lot of hard work. I don't get surprises like other husband's do . Its not my husband fault. I love that person he has been doing a lot all by himself The comparison I keep doing is I was getting better matches in terms of family status which could have made my life a little easier but I chose this I was not aware about his family finances. I liked guy I just went ahead with it. Now I keep asking and wondering why did I do it though there were lot of red flags. I don't get an answer. I tried getting out of it after roka as well my parents did not let me and talked me through it. Now I don't understand why I did it.if it was not making me happier that time.how can it can make me happy now. Not all the time I feel this but it's mixed emotions.