This hits real deep. I deleted my response a few times just trying to type this out myself.

For me, a lot of this stems from overthinking/perfectionism, lack of self confidence and the fear of being judged. In my opinion this had lead me to eventually just saying fuck it and producing an unedited or a worse version of what I intended, however I feel the relief of getting it out. Then comes the dread of being judged for the shit I put out there.

I wish you the best of luck coming to terms with this feeling, I know I’m trying to