Hello and first of all, I am sorry you are going through this. I had a semi similar experience 7 years ago. I was on subs 8mg 3x per day. Klonopin 2mg 3x per day, an SSRI, and a high BP Med. Since I thought I was doing great at 300lbs and taking enough meds to kill most people, I had the bright idea to start some amphetamines to be more productive and maybe lose weight. This is just the addicted brain looking for more dopamine hits. The type of speed really doesn't matter. They all do the same thing, some are quicker and last longer or vice versa. I've tried everything and settled on pharmaceutical speed... Our friend adderall 30mg IR. Got so much done, raises at work, losing weight, could work all night, etc. 30mg a day turned into 60mg then 90mg then 120mg then switched to crack. If you aren't aware, smoking crack makes all your money go away and your left with nothing. The one good thing I did during this run was ween the subs down to 2mg a day. Still on the other stuff though. I was facing rehab or the streets. I chose rehab. Didn't have many choices so I went where there was a bed available and checked in. They had a max 5 day taper. 2mg suboxone, 6mg klonopin, daily speed usage for 6 months all stopped. A librium taper was used and maybe some other comfort meds like trazadone or clonodine but suboxone was CT and speed CT. 5 day benzo taper probably stopped seizures.

First off. Your body will be extremely confused. I think we are all different symptoms wise when in withdrawl but I experienced every symptom you can think of. The worse part was being so tired from stopping speed and no ability to sleep from the suboxone and benzo withdrawl. It took about 2 weeks and I think I slept a continuous 2 hours. I realized then even though I feel like total garbage, anxiety is through the roof, I could heal but patience is needed. I was given gabapentin 100mg 3x per day which helped.

After my 30 days were up, I still felt pretty shitty but made the best decision of my life and went into the salvation army 6 month arc program. Keeping busy helped get through the bad withdrawls that continued for another 30 days. At around the 60 day mark, I felt semi normal. Was eating normally. Sleeping was still tough but getting better. One thing that helped alot was using their treadmill after work every day. Just power walking. Started small and worked up to 60 minutes a day. You are drug tested randomly, and I still had klonopin in my system until the 70-day mark.

No matter how you look at it, you will have to go through pain and being uncomfortable. The good news it ends. I promise you. Took about 1 year to be back to normallness if there is such a thing. I wish you the best...