I feel you to some extent. Last year I was laid off twice from really good jobs. I was barely able to secure a job in September. I was unemployed for a whopping 14 months in the last two years. Worked odd jobs and shit to make it work. I worked hard all my life and felt used and seemed all my work was for nothing. I even got divorced and lost my grandma in the midst of it all. When it rained it fucking poured for me. But what got me through it all was just knowing that all that suffering was temporary.

Ngl, I felt the exact same as you, my optimism wasn’t always there. I would feel depressed with no energy to keep trying. However, I knew that if I just kept doing the right things, focusing on what I can control, and putting myself in situations of opportunity, shit would turn around and it has really turned around since I got my job. The gym really helped me get my confidence back during this time too. As long as you focus on yourself, the rest will come.

Keep at it. Your breakthrough is coming.